:(

i mees jellick.
the good ol' timees :(
freakin' lskdfa;lsdkj
errthang about those days










memories ;;
sometimes they put that smile back on your face
sometimes they just kill you

oh

my goodness.

i made jv :)
so did mal !
yeeeeeee
so freaking excited for season.
it's coming up, so freaking close.
can't wait. omg
we have the best team in the world !
OHBABY BASKETBALL SEASON HERE WE COME >:]

peace outssss
love, lyd <3

p.s. ALBERT ! don't fret, mister. i was pissed when i got that teleparent sent home. LOL

hate

that you're always on my mind.

that thinking of you just always makes me smile.

that i know i can never have you.








eveeeeer. :(

i'm a little piece of nothing
in this big world of chaos
trying to find my way alone
still dealing with the pain of loss
who's next to me to lend a hand
while i walk this path as best i can
who's there beside me as i stand
who's been through it since it all began

how do i take this step by step
when the world around me is a blur
and go on hoping
while of nothing i can be sure
all i can do is sit and cry
as all my loves are passing me by
what use is there in trying to try
when everything you've lived for has said its final goodbye

looking around me i see no light
my whole world is crashing down on me
everybody's putting me down
when i gave to be the best i could be
why is it so hard to keep on going
to keep my weak emotions from showing
so i guess this is how it feels knowing
that i'm the only one here who isn't growing

i'm a little piece of nothing
in this big world of chaos
but one day i'll be stronger
and show them who's boss
i'm tired of the whole world putting me down
thinking they can always just push me around
i'm tired of the days when i'm wearing a frown
but before they know it i'll be up off the ground

i'll be the one they want to see
the one that makes them want to care
to know the girl they never knew
they passed me by, now they'll stop and stare
i'll show them what i've really got
that they were wrong to take my spot
i'll let them know that i never forgot
when they forced me to follow, to be the robot

i'm not who i was before
i can't take this anymore

i don't

like him, guys ! hahahahha goooooosh
*cough* MAL & ARIEO *cough*

dinner tonight. way too much food.
THIS IS THE REASON I CAN'T DO ANY PULLUPS >:O
hahaha yeah it's really starting to piss me off how i can't do pullups. and i can do less pushups than last year. i freaking need to stop eating so much ! omg. it's all cuhs i'm too fat and i have too much weight to lift :(

why don't i spend enough time on homework ?
i'm really hoping to finish #29 for calc tonight, and maybe #25, and if possible, more. cuhs i'm so behind D: I'M GOING TO GET AT LEAST A C THIS SEMESTER >:O really now.
aaaaand i needa start reading for gov omg -_-
i'm tired of these low grades and this low gpa.
eff my freaking horrible time management.
SEE, I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE BLOGGING RIGHT NOW >:O

and on top of errthang, i'm freaking moody & pissy. SCREW PERIODS. haha

'tis almost 9:30 and i still needa do calc & gov. and i'm tired. and distracted. and nobody's buying my cookie dough D:

YOGURTLAND FRIDAY OCTOBER 23RD. GOOOOOOOOOO >:] pleaseplease ? go with a flyer & support rowland ! need a flyer ? ASK :)

peace out home boys
thelydmonster

p.s. I MISS KEVIN LIM OMG D:
p.s.s. "hi tito, hi tita ! anapot ? i'm mallorie's ate !" HAHAHAHHAAHHA yeah idk how to spell anapot. HEHEHEHEHE

walnut

sucks butt >:]
haha no jaykay.
but 27-7 we pwn heheheheh GO RAIDERS !
today was a really good day for me :)
i got cookies from lil <3 THANKS SO MUCH I LOVE YOU HEHE
then soda & costco pizza for lunch instead of lamo school lunch
first period wasn't too bad, we had a creepy sub but whatevers :)
second period was nice hahaha we watched west wing >:] goodstuff !
third period test, eh not too bad i guess. i finished more than usual
fourth period haha we had like a free 20 minutes doing nothing.
fifth period pizza party ! MRS. PHILLIPS :) <3 AND i got cookies. heheheheh those cookies made my day <3
sixth period was a little stressful, but i think i came through alright :)
basketball practice was okay haha. sprints on the football field, not too bad. i think we shoulda done more >:] el pollo loco, THANKS MR. CARR :D & brownies, THANKS CAROL >:]
arieo came over after, we each took a shower & went to mcdonalds & headed over to walnut high school
OMG I HATE THEIR TIGHT SECURITY >:O those security people can go suck it. omg
saw arnold and chris yu today ! yeeeeeee it's been a while :)
stupid chris yu, you're sucha loser. hahahaha
don't even say bye -_-

so guys, vote for WUP ! www.wintheultimateprom.com
more info in a previous blog somewhere hahahaha
for john a. rowland high school
yeee baby we can do this

AND buy cookie dough from me yeah ? :D i think it ranges from like $14 to $17 or $18, idk. i needa seeeeell ! :)

ANDANDAND guys, michael ball got injured today at the football game. if you don't know him, i'm sure you've heard his name before. so show him some love & pray for him ! <3

i only have calc & gov hw this weekend >:] hoping for some sunday afternoon basketbaaaaall ! finally !

oh and, i'm still looking for a boy who can sing in korean. preferably a korean boy. HAHA ask me about it if you're interested ? :o

aaaaaaand aj rafael music video contest, now - november 12. i really wanna do this but i can't find anyone that's free on saturday afternoons. interested ? contact me somehow !

that's all for this week's announcements ! ehheheehehe just kidding ;)

PEACE OUT
love, lyd <3

p.s. SERIOUSLY THANKS LIL <3 for the cookies :D
p.s.s. maaaaaan seriously today was a good day >:]




ARIEEEEEEEOOO !

sorry

sometimes i just get pissed and i can't control my anger so i vent.
please excuse my bad language.

eff.

omg i'm not too freaking young. i'm a sophomore in high school, i'm almost sixteen. i know what i'm doing. why can't you just let me go out late for once. why can't you just let me relieve my stress for one night. like, what the fuck. you don't ever even tell me when we have plans. i ask you if i can go somewhere, all you say is, "we were supposed to go out and eat with blahblah" like what the fuck you never told me. why don't you ever tell me. you don't tell me i'm busy, then i make plans. that's how my life works okay. that's why i'm gonna die early and get a heart attack. i don't fucking care anymore. what the fuck.

you don't let me wear shorts like above my knees. you won't let me wear this dress i wanna wear. you don't fucking tell me when we have plans. you don't let me drive. you don't let me even fucking pierce my ears. you don't let me go out late with friends. you don't let me go to the beach with no adult supervision. i'm not too fucking young for all of this. can i not have some fun ? i'm a sophomore, and i'm completely stressed out 24/7, all day every day, and you won't let me go out and have some fun with asb. "we have to many bondings" well maybe that's cuhs we're normal high school teenagers who like to hang out with each other and get away from all the stress of school. when i'm 25, are you still gonna say i'm too young ? cuhs i'm not too fucking young to pierce my ears, i'm really not. you question every little thing i do, like making samiches for my friends. why do you need to fucking know about my samiches -_-

eff my life

this is the worst week in the world
and it's only effing tuesday -_-

sorry victoria :/

ween 25000 dollah fo' ah scoo ?

start voting for prom today !

GO GO GO VOTE :)
btw, nogales is on the top 10
DO YOU REALLY WANNA LOSE TO THEM ? >:o

and and
happy birfday to my JBABY <3
wtchu, fourteen now ? :O
freshie hehehee

i miss

that feeling <3