it's time

as i said to someone last night, "i've 'unconsciously' made you a part of every aspect of my life". 'unconsciously' as ms. kuo would use it :) i now realize what a big mistake i've made in doing so. i've been trying too hard to hold on to you "as a friend", when even trying to stay just good friends is a bit too much. i gotta admit, you're still my perfect guy ; seems as if everything about you is everything i want. but i can see that you obviously don't want me, so i guess it's time i backed off. why we can't be friends, that i'll never understand. but if it's what you want i'm willing to walk out of your life. besides, i'm better than this ; i don't need to chase after a guy who's only gonna treat me like crap and hurt me the way you do. as my friend said, you "sound like a douche", and i completely agree. i mean, you're actually not a douche, but you are to me lol, so i guess it's time i said goodbye. i don't need a man in my life to make me happy, something i've realized and forgotten countless times in the sixteen years of my lifetime. if you don't want me for who i am, then screw you :) i'll find that special someone somewhere someday, and i know that i don't need you now, no matter just how perfect you might be for me, or not LOL. peace out, homedawg. hopefully we can still be friends in the future.