i feel so alone sometimes. like i have no one. i've been told that there are a lot of people out there who care about me, that ive got friends to go to when i need them. and like dabbie said, i'm the one pushing them away. but why ? and how can i stop ? its like the girl hannah in thirteen reasons why. she pushed everyone away too, everyone who cared, like clay. except, yaknow, i didnt make out with anyone lol. but idk, i just feel like i can relate to her so well. which is totally not a good thing becuhs she killed herself ! i'm scared D: like seriously. the more i think about it, the worse it gets. somebody help me D: but no, therapy wont help lol. seriously, i think i know myself well enough to know that therapy will do me no good. itll just piss me off more :D

whatevs. hung out with my mei today :) TALKED ABOUT BOYS, AS USUAL. BAHAHAH

as you can tell, i'm doing A LITTLE better. dude. basketball practice today. i'm proud of myself cuhs i did well :) i made 9 points ! :D yeah, thats more than i ever made before cuhs i suck haha. but yeah.

AND THEN. vbs was just whatevers. BUT THEN. we went to kingswood for hot pot after ! haha it was so good. but my stomach kinda hurts right now cuhs i ate too much and i have practice tomorrow morning, and a wedding rehearsal..then i have to buy shoes and do my nails, WHICH TAKES FOREVER. then vbs and MORE FOOD after. fatterness, here i come !

gnights, y'all
love, lyd <3