ahh

i feel like my life is so pointless..
i never blog about anything anymore.
cuhs there is nothing to blog about -_-
seriously i feel like fml.
i saw this house yesterday nd i really like it. i hope we get it :)
i think it's the first one where i'm like OMG LET'S LIVE HERE !
ahh, i'd really hate my life if we didn't get it. it's not even that great. it just kinda spoke to me or whatever. hahah
i'm at christina teng's house right now, with jess, kanow nd brian. we ate so freaking much yet i still wanna eat. seriously needa lose weight ! ahh fml
nd annie's not coming to church tonight omg
jess kanow nd chris are all talking. brian nd i don't know what to do. it's like 5 nd we were supposed to start practicing at like 3 -_- eff our lives. ahh
happy birthday to nicole truong !
omg can't wait til tomorrow
another family reunion ;D for nai nai's 70th birthday.
we were supposed to chill with LJN2 but since it's my grandma's birthday nd we're all busy anyways, we're gonna postpone that. can't wait though
ahh we really needa start practicing.

peacee
love, lyd <3

ahh

i don't wanna like him anymore.
he never starts a conversation with me
when i start a conversation, he doesn't seem to want to talk to me
he signs off on me without saying bye
i see him about three times a year
he won't go anywhere with me, cuhs it's "too far" nd he doesn't drive
i try so hard just to get a conversation going nd he just makes it so that i don't know what to say
i feel like he wants to avoid me
he might have a girlfriend, but i can't be sure
he doesn't like me.

just make it all go awaaay :[

my life's so boring

there's nothing to blog about.

i wanna just ditch school a random day next week to go to disneyland with one really close friend. no one in particular..

ahh..fml

peacee
love, lyd <3

this weekend

was fun :)
i'll recap on it later though
got this stupid powerpoint project to work on
but i feel like doing anything to avoid working on it -_-

so this weekend i was really looking forward to seeing al nd rick. but i guess my perspective has been changed. rick doesn't talk to me. LMAO. i mean, sometimes i get the feeling that he knows, nd he doesn't really wanna talk to me. so i feel like giving up. he'd never like me anyways..al's all good. things are the same with us. i miss him already :) but now there's this other guy. he's really outgoing nd fun to talk to. but my problem is, he's like four years older than me. hey, we're both freshmen ! but he's a freshman in college..but seriously if you met him, you wouldn't think so. hahahahaha yeah he acts like he's like a junior or something. idk. but i'm not sure what's goin' on in my head again. hopin' to goin' back to not liking anyone.

can't wait til summer. no more freaking like, staying up til 4 in the morning to read/study/do homework. asdfghjkl; i just wanna sleep all day.

back to the powerpoint project.

peacee
love, lyd <3

considering how yesterday went..

today was a good day !
finally. i thought this week would be the worst ever.
thank you, God :)
i'm not exactly lookin' forward to wakin' up at 6 in the mornin', but i'm willing to pull myself outta bed to spend the weekend with my Lord and Savior :) spring retreat ! at pilgrim pineeees. can't waaaait ! be back monday afternoon. i know you're all gonna miss meeeee. ;) [jess :D]

so yesterday was a horrible day. nd i didn't get any sleep. so i thought, "ugh. friday's gonna suck." but i got a 10 on my individual research for burch, the character quiz in wellmeyer's was easy, i made three shirts in art, nd we watched wangzibianqingwa in chinese. on top of that, practice was cancelled ! :D cuhs there were only three girls there -_- but it was fuun. we played knock-out like ten times, we just like, messed around, nd we ended up playing volleyball. ahahahahhaha yeah, we fail ;) but anyways, i'm in a good mood ! for the time being. hopefully it doesn't change. nd i don't wanna get my period this weekend D: cuhs if i do, that would suck. having my period up in the mountains. ew. c|:

i should do my homework or pack. hehehe

just a little bit more

just a few more weeks to endure of school, i can probably say just a couple of days.
15 days left, it's pretty crazy. i remember just like a month ago i didn't want this year to end. all the seniors mean everything to me, nd i'll miss them more than they could ever know. but life goes on, nd now i can't wait for summer to arrive. i've got a bajillion plans, mostly just hangouts with friends. i'll be goin' to the mall like at least four times. hahahah i remember i used to like, not go to the mall at all. hangin out with LJN2 for truong's birthday on the 31st of may. then i've got to hang out with marielydab, bestfriend & his friend from wilson, mojom, then panda & brian & chris & ariel & kanow. hehehe, then there's more fun to come at jen's house. i've got summer school & basketball practice too. then for my mom's birthday, they wanna go out. like..family vacation kinda out. haha well, i'm lookin' forward to everything. i wanna go to the beach this summer. who wants to come ? :D nd i really wanna hang out with the seniors ! omg. +joan +angela +tawnya +anyone else in the group :)

retreat this weekend. really lookin' forward to it. hope it helps. can't wait to see rick & al ! it's been a whileeeeeeee

& lookin' forward to moving. hopin' to find a house that we're all satisfied & happy with. my dad wants to move to hacienda, but i think it's too far.

& if you want a shirt, you gotta get a shirt & let me know before fourth period on friday. read my myspace bulletin or contact me for more info.

& happy birthday to my one and only sibling & brother. happy birthday daniel lei :)

peacee
love, lyd <3

hello world

i wanna start spending a couple of minutes alone every day
i'm planning on just taking a walk
i need time to myself, thinking about..everything
mostly my relationship with God, that's what i wanna focus on

so i started this today, but it didn't last long cuhs my mom picked me up -_-
but i guess it's partially my fault, cuhs i coulda asked to keep walking

i also read "night" by elie wiesel on my doorstep
my mom thinks i'm weird
she's like, "why don't you wanna go home ?"
mom, it's not that i don't wanna go home. it's just that i love spending time alone outside. i guess you never felt that way before, hm.

so i should get back to my hw.

practice was horrible, yet i'm satisfied.
3 crazy eights & a "fifteen" just killed me
but it's all good :)
lookin' forward to weight lifting tomorrow ! love itt

peacee
love, lyd <3

p.s. i love "what's a man to do" by usher

ew

one thing i hate about myself is that i sweat like a pig. but i specifically hate how my hands sweat so much. i told my mom i think i need surgery for it, that's how bad it is. but she doesn't think it's that bad -_- aiyah, it's really bugging me.

so anyways, ariel's really killing my brain. she's making me think i'm falling for someone..but am i ? maybe i'm just in denial because for the first time in my life until yesterday, i didn't like anyone. that lasted for about a month nd a half to two months, if i do like this guy. it was wonderful :) well i hope i get to see him again sometime. don't intend on liking him for long though, if i do at all. dude i totally sound like i'm in denial don't i -_-

so omg, today i went to ccfc alhambra for the baptismal. i really wanted to talk to andrew lok & victor today. but they freaking left early, i didn't even get to SEE them -_- aiyah, whatevers. i'll see them next week anywayss :) soo, after the baptismal we went out to eat. i don't feel like listing out "we" hahaha. we got stuffed, but turns out we ordered just the right amount of food haha. so yeah, idk. today was pretty fun :)

peaceeeeeeee
love, lyd <3

there's something called "don't touch my stuff"

but if you do, i'm sorry if i yell at you.
big change, eh ? so my dad turned off my computer while i was uplaoding a video. i got pissed, i cussed [on aim] again for the first time since..kevin. which is a big deal. my whole family was against me. i was so pissed i didn't even know what i wanted to do. but after a while, i guess i started calming down. nd i started thinking, what's the right thing to do in this situation ? the Bible says, "Honor your father and mother", that's the fifth commandment, the first with a promise. or something like that. so i guess i was wrong, even though i felt like they were wrong. cuhs even if they were, i was committing a sin. so sorry dad, sorry mom. nd sorry daniel. i just wanna forgive nd forget. but it's sure gonna be hard..

so anyways. i wish i stayed at panda's party longer. hey, next time do friday night ;) cuhs i really wish i was there the whole time. ayeeeeeee faill

so anyways, there are things i don't wanna blog about, i'm too lazy to blog anymore right now anyways

so peacee
- lyd <3

just thought i'd mention

that i did forget something

just wanted to express one of the things on my "list"

number 467 [justkidding] :
i want a guy who will stay up with me all night either
1) when i'm in a bad mood
or
2) when i'm stressed out
or
3) when i just feel like it
to watch a buncha disney movies over again :)
[and enjoy it]

idk, just thought it'd be fun ;)

i wanna watch [in alphabetical order] :
a bug's life
aladdin
alice in wonderland
bambi
beauty and the beast
cinderella
dumbo
hercules
mulan
peter pan
pinocchio
pocahontas
robin hood
sleeping beauty
snow white
tarzan
the aristocats
the jungle book
the lady and the tramp
the lion king
the little mermaid
toy story
101 dalmations

[and more] ;D

yo what up

hehehe

so i haven't blogged since..monday. i sign on, but i don't post. you know why ? cuhs i'm a super lazy person :)

gots a buncha things to say, but by the end of this blog entry, i think i might have forgotten a bunch of them. hehehe !

hm, i've been sleeping super late this past week, it's not good. but what am i to do ? yeah i know, one day this is gonna kill me -_-

so really, i only remember up to like, thursday. which is yesterday. my memory is that bad right now ! wow.

so yesterday was ehh..practice was absolutely HORRIBLE. like i don't even know what was up. i made like ten bajillion mistakes. got hit in the face with a basketball..just horrible. but after practice was great. i love the weight room, i don't even know why. i can bench 70 pounds, squat 125, do 30 pushups, nd i can jump 11 inches ? hahah yeah we tested yesterday. then i went to the hideout, where i saw kanow, jess, tommy, kathryna, etc. theeeeeeen i had to leave, before i could dance to "can i have this dance" with kanow :[ but it's okay ! she can't dance anyways. but i still wanted to..so then my dad took me to see houses. we're moving ! finaally :) the first house we went to was just fine. i wouldn't mind living there ! i already had plans nd stuff, like while we were looking, in my head i was like, "okay this can be the computer room, then my room can be over there. mm, we can work over there when LJN2 comes over ; yay ! there's a yard, that's where i'll play with my dog." hehehehehe i'm hoping for a dog ;) i didn't like the second house though. then i was standing at the side of the street, singing. LMAO idk why. so when we were finally going home, i get a text from david pak saying he saw me on the street. HOW FUNNY ! so i called him back cuhs i can't text nd we talked until i had to eat dinner. haven't talked to him in a while, so it was nice catching up or whatever :)

ANYWHO

today. I LOST MY EFFING CHINESE BOOK. but it's okay, cuhs now i know where it is :) sigh, what a relief ! hehehe. so i think fred's gonna have a girlfriend on monday. her name is sarah claire. oh yeah, i never talked about fred here before. fred is my friend robot. he resides in the cover of my binder on a transparency, waiting to be cleaned up nd screened onto a shirt ;) hehehehe so yeah. don't laugh, harrison -_- he has a heart, remember ? :D so anyways, no practice today ! yaaaay, cuhs yesterday's was a fail, as i mentioned earlier. i don't like whoever graded my essay with the red pen. my grammar is better than yours, so don't you try to correct me. B- ? am i really that bad ? D: so everyone always leaves me afterschool now. jack wasn't there today. david had to pick up his brother then he went home to poo ?! i have NO idea where joan was. one minute she was in the hideout, the next, no one's in the hideout ! so i spent the afternoon with monica, fred, and what will become sarah claire. then i was waiting with rachel at the bench in the front of the school for my dad. i see this car come in nd wonder who it is. i look in the driver's seat, THERE'S MY DAD. i'm like what the..so then it clicks. we got a new car ! haha the only reason i even thought of that was cuhs they were already talking about it before. cuhs our old car was, i gotta admit, pretty darned stupid ! hehe. we got that one in like..2005 ? but we have one that's older than me nd we still have it ! i wanna trade it in. but i don't think we're going to very soon. they were gonna get my brother a yaris, but they say it's too new for him. gotta admit, his driving needs some work ;) so does his temper..he doesn't effing share his chips, nd he's so effing lazy, pisses me off, gooooosh. so i was watching my new dvd, facing the giants. it's my second favorite movie. so as it's been for that past couple of years, my dvd player [which is from china cuhs my dad is cheap] doesn't fully play american dvd's or something, idk. BUT I CAN'T EFFING FINISH AN EFFING MOVIE ON IT, unless the movie is from china. nd it's really starting to piss me off -_- nd my computer doesn't play dvd's either. so how am i supposed to watch effing dvd's, huh ?! cuhs i really wanna know -_- kay, i gotta calm down.

today is randall lin's birthday
tomorrow is my cousin, brian luciano's birthday
sunday is natalie france's birthday
monday is a late start day
tuesday is panda's birthday
wednesday is my brother's birthday !

so happy birthday to you all.
dude, idk fred's birthday :o ima make one up.

so anyways. today i found out some shocking news. ariel is the only one i talked to about it, nd i'm not gonna put it on here. but if you wanna know, ask me ! :D nd i'll tell you if i wanna ;)

good morrow

peace outt
-lyd <3

p.s. jliu showed me this video. nd i personally feel that it is absolutely hilarious.
be sure to watch the lady at the end ! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWRyj5cHIQA

fml

i totally shouldn't be doing this right now, but sometimes i just wanna say, screw everything.
those long walks i blog about sometimes, i really want one right now.
sometimes i just wanna run away.
seems like life's so much better when dad's not around..

so today i realize that my dad has the same plan in store for me as he did for my brother. he was too late to put his plan for my brother into action, but i guess it's still early for me, nd i've even got time to "think about it". well guess what, i don't need to think about this. i know what i want nd i don't wanna have to do otherwise.

nd we've been thinking about moving, i was really excited for it. cuhs of course, i'd still be goin' to rhs. but omg, now my dad wants to live with his whole family, like, all freaking 18 of us. DO YOU HONESTLY THINK I'M GONNA BE HAPPY LIKE THAT ?! seeing my cousins every once in a while is bomb, but every day, it's just too freaking much. nd my aunts nd uncles, how am i supposed to live with them ? i barely even talk to them. family reunions are fun. family union, uh i'm not so sure. i wanna live in a house by myself, how about that ? omg, i know you think i'm overreacting. i mean, what's so bad about bein' with your cousins all the time ? well i think that over-excessive hanging out will just overwhelm me. they get all into your business nd you don't get your space. some fight amongst each other, putting all 8 of us in a bad mood. dude i don't even know. i just wanna take a break from life.

excited for swim banquet, even though i'm not on the team ;)

peacee
- lyd <3

hi guys :)

it's been a whileeeeee !

so here's something i've just been DYING to say.
the hardest decision of my life as of today :
spam & egg ON rice or spam & egg FRIED rice ?
HAHAHAHAHAH dude it was seriously hard.
i ended up choosing the fried rice nd i totally regretted it -_-
i was like, dude i totally shoulda gotten the spam & egg ON rice.
my parents nd my brother were all laughing at me :[
i actually wanted some seafood chow mein, but apparently i'm just stupid !
i ate way too much this weekend. gonna work on losing weight this week.
actually, i probably won't..

so i've been daydreaming lately..
about this dream guy
HAHAHAHAH
well it's probably really just gonna be "in your dreams, lyd"
but i'll just dream on, cuhs i'm a loser, just like angela.

can't wait til next week ! haven't seen rick & al since like, december ?
miss 'em lots :)

nd i've still got lots of homework to do.. :[

peace outt !
- lyd <3

lasertag

was fuuun :)
hehehe, first time around, i FAILED lmao
second time was theeee best
nd third ? eh, it was okay haha
but seriously, like during the game, i thought i was getting pretty good LMAO but when we were looking at the scores..gosh, i felt like every single person in the room was better than me :( cuhs i suck. ahahahha but whatevers, i had a great time :) hahaha my glow in the dark nails were boomb, thanks kanow ;) nd i had on a bunch of my bracelets, the light thingy is so cool HAHA idk what i'm talking about.
weeeell, in n out afteer, i felt so full yet i still wanted more. got kinda pissed when elijah nd pam stole me purse -_- but eh, i gotta get over it HAHA. hm, i got interviewed :D nd i think abby likes me. hehehe, hope so. angela gets bethany, well i get abigail ! she's so cute, she's like 3 months old. aw, i love her. i hope she likes me :) hehehe. oh yeah in the morning i was at the mall, went to watch hon work LMAO that sounds creepy. i was talking to him, nd when he had customers or whatever i was looking at ties LMAO it was quite interesting. i saw some pretty nice ties :) got some birthday presents & a mother's day card. yeeah
yeeee yesterday was a good day :)

but then that leaves all my homework for today. aiyaah
procrastinative. nd jack says i'm not. YEAH RIGHT :D
hahahahah so i got "when the emporer was divine" today. i'm hoping i'll actually read it -_- i really wanna finish "do hard things" too ! arghh. but eh, i just really hope i do. hm, today was okay, went to church. we made mother's day presents today. decorated some bags, it was really fun :) i was like the last to finish..hahahah cuhs i'm so slow -_- but it's okay ! not a problem. so then we went to barnes & nobles nd then macy's. total waste of time..got a dress online for bestbuddies prom, hoping it'll be okay for the whole semi-formal, nd then the theme. hope it's gonna be fuun :) hm, slept for a while, ate, watched tv, started on my hw. i still needa study for bio -_- aiyahh..

daddy's comin' back tomorrow. hope i don't get pissed -_-

i'm so excited !
+ mother's day family reunion
+ daniel's 17th birthday
+ baptismal service [hope i can go]
+ spring retreat
+ mommy's birthday
+ vbs
+ community service / lock in
+ parents appreciation night
coming up in the next couple of months :)

gotta get back to work noow
peace outt !
- lyd <3

i have a lot to change about myself

i need to make a big apology..
to God.

from an interview today, i've realized that i really don't do much to keep my relationship with Him strong. so many things i haven't thought about. i say i want to try. but why am i not trying ? God, please help me to figure this out.

TEEHEE

i've been saying that quite a lot now -_-
too much nigahiga ? not really...

so anyways, adam just imed me. i thought something happened cuhs he never ims me but apparently not :] hahaha yeah, he totally told me to blog about him.

my mom just told me that some car just crashed into hers. how scary. i think that's like the first time in over 15 years. cuhs it's the first time i remember in my lifetime. whoa scary. i hope everyone's okay.

wow. i haven't been on in forever. again. yeee i'm the sophomore historian for class of 2012 :o hey jess, you'll be fine, don't worry about it. you'll come back ;) pray ! it works :) just think, maybe this is supposed to happen. maybe God wanted this to happen to teach you a lesson or something. you should know He never gives you something you can't handle. He knows you'll get through it. maybe this is just to show that you can't always get what you want. nd it'll just make you work harder for it next year, and the year after that. maybe this is to tell you not to take being asb president for granted. well i'm here for you if you ever need me, even though i might not know what to say -_- <3

asdfghjkl; basketball practice outside today ! aiyah, ran two perimeters. aye whatevers. i need more exercise anyways. hahaha

hm, what else. oh yeah, happy late birthday to kevin hwee and dorothy zuniga ! nd also, congrats to all who made asb officers this year :)

well i really don't know what else to say. hehe

peace outt !
- lyd <3