fml

i totally shouldn't be doing this right now, but sometimes i just wanna say, screw everything.
those long walks i blog about sometimes, i really want one right now.
sometimes i just wanna run away.
seems like life's so much better when dad's not around..

so today i realize that my dad has the same plan in store for me as he did for my brother. he was too late to put his plan for my brother into action, but i guess it's still early for me, nd i've even got time to "think about it". well guess what, i don't need to think about this. i know what i want nd i don't wanna have to do otherwise.

nd we've been thinking about moving, i was really excited for it. cuhs of course, i'd still be goin' to rhs. but omg, now my dad wants to live with his whole family, like, all freaking 18 of us. DO YOU HONESTLY THINK I'M GONNA BE HAPPY LIKE THAT ?! seeing my cousins every once in a while is bomb, but every day, it's just too freaking much. nd my aunts nd uncles, how am i supposed to live with them ? i barely even talk to them. family reunions are fun. family union, uh i'm not so sure. i wanna live in a house by myself, how about that ? omg, i know you think i'm overreacting. i mean, what's so bad about bein' with your cousins all the time ? well i think that over-excessive hanging out will just overwhelm me. they get all into your business nd you don't get your space. some fight amongst each other, putting all 8 of us in a bad mood. dude i don't even know. i just wanna take a break from life.

excited for swim banquet, even though i'm not on the team ;)

peacee
- lyd <3