one in the mornin'
workin' on my poem presentation.
good luck, lyd
hope you don't fail -_-
V
V
V
the chem test.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
hatemylifeeeee.
i honestly wish my life could end right now.
life reeeeally sucks.
and i'm too effing lazy to type it all out.
today i finished my first hot cheeto bag in years.
life reeeeally sucks.
and i'm too effing lazy to type it all out.
today i finished my first hot cheeto bag in years.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
i don't know
what you're thinking right now.
these past two days, i feel like i've been really lost.
i really wanna talk to you, i just don't know what to say.
from what i see, you seem to be doing just fine without me.
but i don't really wanna think that ; maybe it's just me pretending i don't matter.
i haven't started a conversation, neither have you.
it seems to be the only thing on my mind nowadays.
i'm really confused, and scared.
and i really don't know what to do.
if only i could pull the courage outta me to talk to you.
cuhs i really need to.
"It's not that I can't live without you, it's just that I don't want to try."
these past two days, i feel like i've been really lost.
i really wanna talk to you, i just don't know what to say.
from what i see, you seem to be doing just fine without me.
but i don't really wanna think that ; maybe it's just me pretending i don't matter.
i haven't started a conversation, neither have you.
it seems to be the only thing on my mind nowadays.
i'm really confused, and scared.
and i really don't know what to do.
if only i could pull the courage outta me to talk to you.
cuhs i really need to.
"It's not that I can't live without you, it's just that I don't want to try."
Sunday, September 20, 2009
why am i not doing homework ?
i was looking through some friendship quotes to write on kevin lim's birthday card.
and here's what i found :
"The friendship that can cease has never been real."
- Saint Jerome
as i read this i thought of her.
and i knew, right now is just one of those dips on our roller coaster ride of a friendship. in the long run, it'll be okay. this friendship is real, and it doesn't have the ability to cease.
peace out
love, lyd <3
and here's what i found :
"The friendship that can cease has never been real."
- Saint Jerome
as i read this i thought of her.
and i knew, right now is just one of those dips on our roller coaster ride of a friendship. in the long run, it'll be okay. this friendship is real, and it doesn't have the ability to cease.
peace out
love, lyd <3
Saturday, September 19, 2009
lksjdklafsd
wow that post took me about an hour.
just wanted to say [pretend this is yesterday] happy 18th birthday to kevin lim :) i lahve youuuu <3 !
anddd, my week was horrible, by the way.
i'm excited for best buddies ! hehe
i miss my mei. haven't seen her since like, summer D:
just wanted to say [pretend this is yesterday] happy 18th birthday to kevin lim :) i lahve youuuu <3 !
anddd, my week was horrible, by the way.
i'm excited for best buddies ! hehe
i miss my mei. haven't seen her since like, summer D:
Friday, September 18, 2009
haven't posted in a week
so busy. so stressed. so confused.
mkay so, there's something i think i need to say. i'm not gonna tell you about this. you can read it if you see it, whether you just wanna read my blog, or if he sees it first and tells you to read it. or you could just not see it, and not read it. or see it and not read it. whatever
not including the last couple of months, these past more than three years have been a blast. all throughout alvarado, and my first year at rowland, she's been there for me, every step of the way. it all began in sixth grade, us and our advanced math, gosh. the year flew by and i didn't talk to you becuhs well, i wasn't "allowed" to. summer came a long, and i was talking to thexfatxpig on aim with my first sn ever : cuteaznpride. we talked and we talked, and we got really close. she was pretty much my closest friend that summer, i told her everything, from enoch to wilber to willie to my summer, to, pretty much, life. and that's when it all started, 2006. i went to china that summer, and was there for about a month and a half. missed her a lot while i was gone, but when i came back, i'm pretty sure things were the same. unlike another situation that i'm not going to discuss right now. but anyways, as august 2006 slowly approached, i was excited for school. excited to see all my friends again, excited to finally be at the same school as this y0sunshineexx that's just so good at brightening up my day. i don't quite remember how many classes we had together, but i know forsure yearbook with delia and science with moreno were two. she taught me how to play minesweeper that year, and i got really good at it too. she laughed in that class, oh so much. she complained to me about moreno, how much he hated her and got her in trouble and pissed her off like no other. she was there for me february 2007 when i met him. she was there when i got with him, when he broke up with me in may, when we got back together, and when he broke up with me once again that june. she was there for me when i needed a shoulder to lean on. she brought me up every time i was down. she was there for me when i was hurt and confused. 8th grade came along, we only had one class together. she enduring all my obsessive talk with that one "cute" guy. i told her about the first time i ever talked to him, she was there through all the staring. i remember being on the phone with her that november, 2007. it was a saturday night, and i was asking her whether or not i should tell him how i feel. i told her everything that happened when i did tell him. how my heart was beating at 107842079318472 beats per second or whatever, how my hands were shaking ferociously, how i didn't know exactly what to say. how he asked me to winterformal, but told me he only liked me as a friend. i told her everything that happened four days later, when he told me that he liked me too. she was there for me through it all. she linked our arms for the first time. i told her about the first time we held hands. i told her about how i loved the way he held me. i told her about the closet, and the park. i told her when i had my first kiss. she was there for me when i had to leave for china for the second time. and she was there for me when i came back. she was there when he and i were happy, and she was there when things weren't going so well. she was there for me in august on 2008, when all i could do was cry, and in september, when it was all over. she was there for the next few months, when i was depressed. this is now my first year of high school. we had no classes together. but what does that matter, she was still my best friend. we hung out every day at lunch, usually with my twin. she was there for me when i had that "magical hug", even though she'd make fun of me all the time. she was there for me when that ended too. she was there when i started liking the senior. and she was there when i started liking another one. i remember on some saturday nights, my computer would be off, and i'd just sit on my bed and call her, just to talk. she'd have to go after a while, but that was okay, at least we got to catch up a little bit. i remember her fourteenth birthday at hometown buffet. i couldn't make it, and i sat at the basketball court at church, crying and on the phone. they kept telling me, stop crying lyd, stop crying. at least i saw her for two seconds at the mall. she was the first to call me lyd, and at first, the only. then everyone started calling me lyd. she was there for me through all my mood swings and my change of personalities every year. though the changes in my style, the changes in my typing as well. i remember walking her to the bus stop every day at alvarado, and sitting there on the grass with her, talking about our lives and our boys. i remember our double dates to jack in the box and to the library. those were always fun. i remember going to the mall with her once, maybe twice. and her coming to my house for that math project. her coming to my house to make hearts out of expired candy for our boys. i don't know what happened to the one i gave him. all these good memories, seems like most are from our middle school days. just as everyone matures at different rates, grows up to become different people, i feel like that's what happened to us. it all started last year, when i became a busybee. i wasn't always there at lunch, always had some sort of club meeting. i spent less time on the phone with her, i had too much homework to do. i went out a lot with the seniors, she wasn't exactly too happy about that, she thought i did it way too much. but i never listened. i wanted things my own way, and she wished for me to do things her way. that's what happens when you deal with human beings. those selfish brats, like me. i don't know what's happening anymore. things have changed, a lot. she's gone her way, i've gone my way. what happened to BFFLTD ? i know it's not her, it's me. i keep making excuses, to not im her, to not call her on saturday nights when my computer isn't on, to not hang out with her when it's just her and him. there's so many things i haven't told her, so many things she doesn't know about me anymore. i want things to go back to the way they were before, but i know it's not going to happen. i want our friendship to be the same as it always was, but it's not just going to happen with a snap or in the blink of an eye. i know we need to work towards what we used to be, but i'm not sure if both of us want to, or if both of us are willing to. i'm tired of being so confused, and not knowing who i can always go to. i miss having her always there for me, i miss the phone calls and the talks when he wasn't around. i miss knowing exactly who to call when i need something, i miss know exactly who it is my best friend really is. i miss her, and i miss what we had back then. and i'm really sorry for being what i've been. and now she's mad at me.
i don't remember the last time i told her i love her
mkay so, there's something i think i need to say. i'm not gonna tell you about this. you can read it if you see it, whether you just wanna read my blog, or if he sees it first and tells you to read it. or you could just not see it, and not read it. or see it and not read it. whatever
not including the last couple of months, these past more than three years have been a blast. all throughout alvarado, and my first year at rowland, she's been there for me, every step of the way. it all began in sixth grade, us and our advanced math, gosh. the year flew by and i didn't talk to you becuhs well, i wasn't "allowed" to. summer came a long, and i was talking to thexfatxpig on aim with my first sn ever : cuteaznpride. we talked and we talked, and we got really close. she was pretty much my closest friend that summer, i told her everything, from enoch to wilber to willie to my summer, to, pretty much, life. and that's when it all started, 2006. i went to china that summer, and was there for about a month and a half. missed her a lot while i was gone, but when i came back, i'm pretty sure things were the same. unlike another situation that i'm not going to discuss right now. but anyways, as august 2006 slowly approached, i was excited for school. excited to see all my friends again, excited to finally be at the same school as this y0sunshineexx that's just so good at brightening up my day. i don't quite remember how many classes we had together, but i know forsure yearbook with delia and science with moreno were two. she taught me how to play minesweeper that year, and i got really good at it too. she laughed in that class, oh so much. she complained to me about moreno, how much he hated her and got her in trouble and pissed her off like no other. she was there for me february 2007 when i met him. she was there when i got with him, when he broke up with me in may, when we got back together, and when he broke up with me once again that june. she was there for me when i needed a shoulder to lean on. she brought me up every time i was down. she was there for me when i was hurt and confused. 8th grade came along, we only had one class together. she enduring all my obsessive talk with that one "cute" guy. i told her about the first time i ever talked to him, she was there through all the staring. i remember being on the phone with her that november, 2007. it was a saturday night, and i was asking her whether or not i should tell him how i feel. i told her everything that happened when i did tell him. how my heart was beating at 107842079318472 beats per second or whatever, how my hands were shaking ferociously, how i didn't know exactly what to say. how he asked me to winterformal, but told me he only liked me as a friend. i told her everything that happened four days later, when he told me that he liked me too. she was there for me through it all. she linked our arms for the first time. i told her about the first time we held hands. i told her about how i loved the way he held me. i told her about the closet, and the park. i told her when i had my first kiss. she was there for me when i had to leave for china for the second time. and she was there for me when i came back. she was there when he and i were happy, and she was there when things weren't going so well. she was there for me in august on 2008, when all i could do was cry, and in september, when it was all over. she was there for the next few months, when i was depressed. this is now my first year of high school. we had no classes together. but what does that matter, she was still my best friend. we hung out every day at lunch, usually with my twin. she was there for me when i had that "magical hug", even though she'd make fun of me all the time. she was there for me when that ended too. she was there when i started liking the senior. and she was there when i started liking another one. i remember on some saturday nights, my computer would be off, and i'd just sit on my bed and call her, just to talk. she'd have to go after a while, but that was okay, at least we got to catch up a little bit. i remember her fourteenth birthday at hometown buffet. i couldn't make it, and i sat at the basketball court at church, crying and on the phone. they kept telling me, stop crying lyd, stop crying. at least i saw her for two seconds at the mall. she was the first to call me lyd, and at first, the only. then everyone started calling me lyd. she was there for me through all my mood swings and my change of personalities every year. though the changes in my style, the changes in my typing as well. i remember walking her to the bus stop every day at alvarado, and sitting there on the grass with her, talking about our lives and our boys. i remember our double dates to jack in the box and to the library. those were always fun. i remember going to the mall with her once, maybe twice. and her coming to my house for that math project. her coming to my house to make hearts out of expired candy for our boys. i don't know what happened to the one i gave him. all these good memories, seems like most are from our middle school days. just as everyone matures at different rates, grows up to become different people, i feel like that's what happened to us. it all started last year, when i became a busybee. i wasn't always there at lunch, always had some sort of club meeting. i spent less time on the phone with her, i had too much homework to do. i went out a lot with the seniors, she wasn't exactly too happy about that, she thought i did it way too much. but i never listened. i wanted things my own way, and she wished for me to do things her way. that's what happens when you deal with human beings. those selfish brats, like me. i don't know what's happening anymore. things have changed, a lot. she's gone her way, i've gone my way. what happened to BFFLTD ? i know it's not her, it's me. i keep making excuses, to not im her, to not call her on saturday nights when my computer isn't on, to not hang out with her when it's just her and him. there's so many things i haven't told her, so many things she doesn't know about me anymore. i want things to go back to the way they were before, but i know it's not going to happen. i want our friendship to be the same as it always was, but it's not just going to happen with a snap or in the blink of an eye. i know we need to work towards what we used to be, but i'm not sure if both of us want to, or if both of us are willing to. i'm tired of being so confused, and not knowing who i can always go to. i miss having her always there for me, i miss the phone calls and the talks when he wasn't around. i miss knowing exactly who to call when i need something, i miss know exactly who it is my best friend really is. i miss her, and i miss what we had back then. and i'm really sorry for being what i've been. and now she's mad at me.
i don't remember the last time i told her i love her
Friday, September 11, 2009
thirty two
more weeks to go.
my third week of school was okay for me. maybe cuhs i was only there for like, two days, practically.
monday : no school. camp surf. not extremely fun, but pretty fun. TEAM E BABYYY >:] team E is the beest heheheh. i think we had the most fun. like seriously everyone else looked bored outta their minds. idk what else to say..
tuesday : got back to school at like 3ish. coulda went to weight training, didn't feel like it. waited around for someone willing to take me home. finally at 3, thanks allysa :) uhh idk what else.
wednesday : back to school, so much hw D: uhm. failed my calc test, cried. had a horrible day pretty much. but basketball practice went well. made like almost all my shots nd layups :) yay ! teehee
thursday : HORRIBLE morning. dropped my breakfast. found a spider in my shoe D: got a FAIL on my calc test. practice was okay. at school til 10:30 pm
friday : got to school at 6 am. welcome back set up & stuff. my first balloon column ! we failed at backdrop-moving. omg -_- well whatevers, some say it went well, some say it sucked. too bad. practice ! not too bad. first half hour went by like this *snaps* last fifteen minutes were like a whole lifetime. ran a long distance. HAHAH well it wasn't that bad. my time was 9:57. FAILED at pullups. got brownies after practice though ! thanks "coach carr" :) i'm sorry, i'm used to calling him mr. carr. but wow, he knows my name :o so uhm. chilled with mallorie and her family all afternoon. hahahah ! we watched two seconds of water polo, her mom came, asked if i had a ride, offered to give me one. ended up going to her house instead, stayed there til 5:30, dropped off allen and mr. ben at walnut, then off to my house we went. mallorie finally met robert >:] i'm not sure if he's shedding or mating -_- *shudders* so uhm. yeah. after that, grandparents'. then jennifer chung at yogurtland ! i'm so glad my mom finally let me go :) i actually talked to her. i think she knows my name :D teehee
tomorrow : i think i'll be chillin' with jasper & kevinlim for four hours. possibly joan. we'll see.
sunday : class officer bonding ! ;alskd;flakdsjf
lalala you make me sing
peace out
love, lyd <3
hope i can finish my homework. D:
and i'm scared of my gov test results ! DD:
my third week of school was okay for me. maybe cuhs i was only there for like, two days, practically.
monday : no school. camp surf. not extremely fun, but pretty fun. TEAM E BABYYY >:] team E is the beest heheheh. i think we had the most fun. like seriously everyone else looked bored outta their minds. idk what else to say..
tuesday : got back to school at like 3ish. coulda went to weight training, didn't feel like it. waited around for someone willing to take me home. finally at 3, thanks allysa :) uhh idk what else.
wednesday : back to school, so much hw D: uhm. failed my calc test, cried. had a horrible day pretty much. but basketball practice went well. made like almost all my shots nd layups :) yay ! teehee
thursday : HORRIBLE morning. dropped my breakfast. found a spider in my shoe D: got a FAIL on my calc test. practice was okay. at school til 10:30 pm
friday : got to school at 6 am. welcome back set up & stuff. my first balloon column ! we failed at backdrop-moving. omg -_- well whatevers, some say it went well, some say it sucked. too bad. practice ! not too bad. first half hour went by like this *snaps* last fifteen minutes were like a whole lifetime. ran a long distance. HAHAH well it wasn't that bad. my time was 9:57. FAILED at pullups. got brownies after practice though ! thanks "coach carr" :) i'm sorry, i'm used to calling him mr. carr. but wow, he knows my name :o so uhm. chilled with mallorie and her family all afternoon. hahahah ! we watched two seconds of water polo, her mom came, asked if i had a ride, offered to give me one. ended up going to her house instead, stayed there til 5:30, dropped off allen and mr. ben at walnut, then off to my house we went. mallorie finally met robert >:] i'm not sure if he's shedding or mating -_- *shudders* so uhm. yeah. after that, grandparents'. then jennifer chung at yogurtland ! i'm so glad my mom finally let me go :) i actually talked to her. i think she knows my name :D teehee
tomorrow : i think i'll be chillin' with jasper & kevinlim for four hours. possibly joan. we'll see.
sunday : class officer bonding ! ;alskd;flakdsjf
lalala you make me sing
peace out
love, lyd <3
hope i can finish my homework. D:
and i'm scared of my gov test results ! DD:
Sunday, September 6, 2009
OMG
just got back from ISA a while ago
i'm so freakin' excited omg !
i met some pretty cool people in line :)
got the TASTE of a good seat then had to move :[
spent time with vickie for the first time in a long time not at school ! :D
had gatorade for dinner.. LMAO
omg i got pictures with jennifer chung, tom ngo, gabe bondoc, & dominic ? from quest crew :D:D:DDDD
aaaaaand i got to shake hands with ALMOST D: everyone from ISA
AAAAAAAND i got to hug david choi, kina grannis, kevjumba, and WESLEY CHAN <3
MY OH MY WHAT A NIGHT
got to see aika again for the first time in three years :)
brian park was there, kenneth gip, alan & ben tsai, kevin lim, david wang, joan hsu, melody lai, jack lin, christina hwee, loradane, and other alumni that i never really met. hahahaha
today was amazing :) YAYAYYAYYY :D hehehehehe.
CAMP SURF TOMORROW ! :) still gots to pack & still gots a lotsa homeworks though :(
but 'tis ohkay. i had a great day today :)
WHEEEEE GABE BONDOC & WESLEY CHAN <3
peace out !
love, lyd <3
:)
i'm so freakin' excited omg !
i met some pretty cool people in line :)
got the TASTE of a good seat then had to move :[
spent time with vickie for the first time in a long time not at school ! :D
had gatorade for dinner.. LMAO
omg i got pictures with jennifer chung, tom ngo, gabe bondoc, & dominic ? from quest crew :D:D:DDDD
aaaaaand i got to shake hands with ALMOST D: everyone from ISA
AAAAAAAND i got to hug david choi, kina grannis, kevjumba, and WESLEY CHAN <3
MY OH MY WHAT A NIGHT
got to see aika again for the first time in three years :)
brian park was there, kenneth gip, alan & ben tsai, kevin lim, david wang, joan hsu, melody lai, jack lin, christina hwee, loradane, and other alumni that i never really met. hahahaha
today was amazing :) YAYAYYAYYY :D hehehehehe.
CAMP SURF TOMORROW ! :) still gots to pack & still gots a lotsa homeworks though :(
but 'tis ohkay. i had a great day today :)
WHEEEEE GABE BONDOC & WESLEY CHAN <3
peace out !
love, lyd <3
:)
Friday, September 4, 2009
YAYAYAYAYYYY
second week of school : over.
no that's not what i'm yaying about -_-
there's still freakin' like 34 weeks left.. D:
I'M DYING GUYS. somebody help me :[
i'm failing all my classes. this is horrible.
i think i have an F in calc. seriously.
and i think i failed my ap gov test today.
I HATE ASB RIGHT NOW.
i probably have like a D or something in english. stupid scarlet letter.
chem's alright, i'm tied for first place with a 98.3 % i guess i've always been pretty good at science ? i thought i'd always been good at math too though -_- eff that.
asb, it's hard for me not to get an A, isn't it ?
and i probably have an A in chinese.
A in basketball, of course. haha.
but i used to have a 4.0
and now i'm failing three classes. or at least i think i am..
life sucks, doesn't it ? D:
and i have to finish my homework by saturday night.
now for the yay's :D
i went to the pool today. hahahah. put my feet in the water :D haha wish i coulda gone all the way down. but i didn't have any clothes to change into, and i was waiting for my brother to come anywaays. fun talkin' to krys & annie :)
yayayaayy, i saw kevin lim yesterdee <3 i miss him :[ i hadn't seen him before yesterday since likee, that day i went to see wong fu. hahahaha yeah i know it wasn't that long ago, i guess i just miss seeing him every day during the school year. and at least once a week during the summer. didn't get to talk to him for long though hahaha. i felt so sneaky last night though :o even though i was right outside my house -_- LMAO
OMGOMGOMG sunday night. ISA BABBAAAAYY <3 wongfu, david choi, kina grannis, gabe bondoc !, quest crew, passion, and more ! i'm so freakin' excited. haven't chilled with vickie in a whileeeeeee :)
and CAMP SURF monday & tuesday ! i'm not sure if i wanna miss school on tuesday though. i'm scared. i need to go to calc to learn.
well i think that's it for the yay's cuhs my life sucks.
still haven't gone to cue & dinner with LJN2.
& still haven't hung with marielydab + jasfil for the birthdays. i feel like we're starting to drift..
seriously dab, i don't wanna kill our friendship over a stupid project. i know you're mad at me, i haven't talked to you in like four days. and i miss you. i'm just scared to start the first conversation. i'm really sorry
mariel always seems to be sad nowadays. she doesn't tell me anything anymore, so idk wsup. i don't talk to phillip much anymore. i only talk to jasper at 4th period, the passing period after 4th, and lunch. i miss you guys.
kevin suh hates me :'( it makes me sad
i feel like the whole world hates me, like my whole world is crashing down on me right now. i'm serious, this is too much for me to handle. i'm freakin' scared. what happened to all the friendships ? is it me ?
and on top of everything, i'm freakin' sore from basketball. all this plios / conditioning and weight training is killing my muscles. but i hope i'll be a lot better by season. & i'm really hoping i'll be on jv. fingers crossed.
i just don't know what to think anymore.
peace out
love, lyd <3
no that's not what i'm yaying about -_-
there's still freakin' like 34 weeks left.. D:
I'M DYING GUYS. somebody help me :[
i'm failing all my classes. this is horrible.
i think i have an F in calc. seriously.
and i think i failed my ap gov test today.
I HATE ASB RIGHT NOW.
i probably have like a D or something in english. stupid scarlet letter.
chem's alright, i'm tied for first place with a 98.3 % i guess i've always been pretty good at science ? i thought i'd always been good at math too though -_- eff that.
asb, it's hard for me not to get an A, isn't it ?
and i probably have an A in chinese.
A in basketball, of course. haha.
but i used to have a 4.0
and now i'm failing three classes. or at least i think i am..
life sucks, doesn't it ? D:
and i have to finish my homework by saturday night.
now for the yay's :D
i went to the pool today. hahahah. put my feet in the water :D haha wish i coulda gone all the way down. but i didn't have any clothes to change into, and i was waiting for my brother to come anywaays. fun talkin' to krys & annie :)
yayayaayy, i saw kevin lim yesterdee <3 i miss him :[ i hadn't seen him before yesterday since likee, that day i went to see wong fu. hahahaha yeah i know it wasn't that long ago, i guess i just miss seeing him every day during the school year. and at least once a week during the summer. didn't get to talk to him for long though hahaha. i felt so sneaky last night though :o even though i was right outside my house -_- LMAO
OMGOMGOMG sunday night. ISA BABBAAAAYY <3 wongfu, david choi, kina grannis, gabe bondoc !, quest crew, passion, and more ! i'm so freakin' excited. haven't chilled with vickie in a whileeeeeee :)
and CAMP SURF monday & tuesday ! i'm not sure if i wanna miss school on tuesday though. i'm scared. i need to go to calc to learn.
well i think that's it for the yay's cuhs my life sucks.
still haven't gone to cue & dinner with LJN2.
& still haven't hung with marielydab + jasfil for the birthdays. i feel like we're starting to drift..
seriously dab, i don't wanna kill our friendship over a stupid project. i know you're mad at me, i haven't talked to you in like four days. and i miss you. i'm just scared to start the first conversation. i'm really sorry
mariel always seems to be sad nowadays. she doesn't tell me anything anymore, so idk wsup. i don't talk to phillip much anymore. i only talk to jasper at 4th period, the passing period after 4th, and lunch. i miss you guys.
kevin suh hates me :'( it makes me sad
i feel like the whole world hates me, like my whole world is crashing down on me right now. i'm serious, this is too much for me to handle. i'm freakin' scared. what happened to all the friendships ? is it me ?
and on top of everything, i'm freakin' sore from basketball. all this plios / conditioning and weight training is killing my muscles. but i hope i'll be a lot better by season. & i'm really hoping i'll be on jv. fingers crossed.
i just don't know what to think anymore.
peace out
love, lyd <3
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i talked about him today.
for the first time in a while, actually
it hit me like a bullet in the heart
two days
i don't understand or know why
but i've been counting down the days
since i realized it was september..
already.
it's been so long
since those times when he would
do those things to me
apparently he didn't listen to his best friend's advice
things have changed
he's changed
i don't know why it hurts so much
but it does
it's like a big burden on my heart
wanna tell someone but i can't
it's too late now to stop anything
and it's too late now to not feel the hurt
i wish it were over
for the first time in a while, actually
it hit me like a bullet in the heart
two days
i don't understand or know why
but i've been counting down the days
since i realized it was september..
already.
it's been so long
since those times when he would
do those things to me
apparently he didn't listen to his best friend's advice
things have changed
he's changed
i don't know why it hurts so much
but it does
it's like a big burden on my heart
wanna tell someone but i can't
it's too late now to stop anything
and it's too late now to not feel the hurt
i wish it were over
Thursday, September 3, 2009
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