.

i talked about him today.
for the first time in a while, actually
it hit me like a bullet in the heart
two days
i don't understand or know why
but i've been counting down the days
since i realized it was september..
already.
it's been so long
since those times when he would
do those things to me
apparently he didn't listen to his best friend's advice
things have changed
he's changed
i don't know why it hurts so much
but it does
it's like a big burden on my heart
wanna tell someone but i can't
it's too late now to stop anything
and it's too late now to not feel the hurt
i wish it were over