i don't know

what you're thinking right now.
these past two days, i feel like i've been really lost.
i really wanna talk to you, i just don't know what to say.
from what i see, you seem to be doing just fine without me.
but i don't really wanna think that ; maybe it's just me pretending i don't matter.
i haven't started a conversation, neither have you.
it seems to be the only thing on my mind nowadays.
i'm really confused, and scared.
and i really don't know what to do.
if only i could pull the courage outta me to talk to you.
cuhs i really need to.

"It's not that I can't live without you, it's just that I don't want to try."