drama

i despise it. can't stand it, i've had way too much of it.
but it just keeps coming back.

you, you're like one of my best friends. i tell you almost everything, except the little things that a girl like you just shouldn't know. but sometimes, the things you do really bug. i'm already in enough of a dilemma without you in it, but you're just making it worse, when you were the one person i'd go to when i needed help with this very same dilemma. i went to you time and time again until you yourself became the very problem that i now have to deal with without you. it's probably just the way you are and you can't help it, but i just can't help but feel the way i do about it. i don't wanna have to feel fake around you, but right now i feel like i have to. i know that the next time we're alone with time to talk, i'll probably end up talking to you about it. but i also know that all you'll do is defend yourself and say that i'm thinking too much, again. i don't know what to think anymore. cuhs i really don't feel that i'm wrong. like seriously, if someone else were in my shoes, they'd feel the same way too. now i'm head over heels in like with this guy and because of it, i can't feel the same about one of my best friends. i hate when things like this happen. i know that i shouldn't be blaming you, that i should find my own flaws. but i really can't think of any for this, except maybe that i'm thinking too much, which i probably am, but i'd still feel the same if i weren't thinking too much. girl, why you gotta be like this :/




knew from the start it'd be a bad week.