baby, it's cold outside

it's pretty cold inside too. hm, i wonder why. possibly cuhs i'm wearing like a tank top nd shorts..hahah

so i've come to the conclusion that i'm a very happy person. if you haven't already noticed, there's probably like a bajillion "hahaha"s in all of my blog entries. that's cuhs i laugh a lot. like my bestfriendbrian said today, i talk online just like i talk in person. yeah, most people don't, huh ? ahaha idk. well sometimes i wonder why i'm so happy. actually, no i don't. i often wonder why my life sucks so much. but when i take the time to look at other people's lives, or at their everyday problems and situations, i realize that i've got it pretty good, for now at least. haha. boy problems, friendship problems, parental problems, issues at school, or just any problems or issues in general ; yeah, of couse i've got them. but it's not as bad as what some of my friends go through, you know ? i feel like i just take everything for granted. like all this food i eat. i just eat nd eat, not thinking that one day southern california might be in a severe famine or something. nd all the food my mother makes for me, have i once thanked her for it ?! how she prepares like all my meals, how she washes all my clothes [yeah, yeah she does. hahaha], how she gives me a lot of the things i wanna buy. i seriously realize that i totally take her for granted. it's as if she HAS to cook for us, nd she HAS to take care of us. one day, she just might get lazy nd stop doing these things, nd ima be like, why aren't you making dinner ?! nd she's gonna say, i'm tired of it. i don't HAVE to do it anyways. nd it's gonna hit me smack in the face. dude, i totally went on a major tangent. but while we're here, i'm just gonna take this time to thank her. thanks mom. this word of thanks shouldn't just be on mother's day. or just on like random days, every once in a while. it should be every single day. cuhs that's just how much she does for me. i love you, mommy :) <3 so uh, back to my life. LMAO. so uh, i've been in a pretty big mess before. i mean, all my life i've been this crazy happy bubbly little girl. HAHAHAHA i love how it pisses jess off :) but anyways. i was like that in elementary school, as well as middle school. nd i guess i could say that i'm still like that now, even though it's not as much as before. the beginning of my freshman year i was like majorly depressed, nd ever since, i haven't really been the same. but i'm still happier than a lot of people..which is kind of sad. makes me wonder how bad their lives really are. sometimes i just wish that this world could be a superhappy place. at least for a day. that'd be great :) it'd be like we're livin' in disneyland ! omg :D hahaha jaykay. so uh, btw, i tell very pointless stories. nd idk if this can be considered a "story", but this entire blog entry to you may have been pointless. however, to me it's like an opening to my eyes or something. haha idk. cuhs like yeah, i totally didn't know what i was gonna write when i clicked on the link that said "post new" or whatever it said. i just wanted to post something. nd i did ! hahaha well yeah. sorry this is superlong, cuhs i just like totally wasted your time.

peace out !
. lyd ! <3