seems as if...

...everyone's getting too lazy or too busy to blog nowadays. i'm one of those people. but i still miss signin' on every day to post superlong blogs that are so long that i don't even feel like rereading them myself.

...sadies is the most stressful dance of the year. probably cuhs girls stress out about this stuff more than guys do. there's so much freakin' drama ! omg.

...my life is falling apart, but i'm the one who's not tryin' hard enough to fix it. i don't even know why i feel like this. i'm just so much worse than what i used to be. i wonder if it's cuhs i hang out with the seniors too much. but hey 'o9, you guys are the best, nd there's no doubt about it.

...there's a fake side to everybody. even the people who you'd never expect it out of. freakin' hypocrites everywhere you go. nd don't get me wrong, i'm not saying i'm not one of these people. but i am saying that i don't want to be.

...high school can kill your life. whether it's homework, drama, extracurricular activities [HAHA ERICTAN], or whatever. everything's just so much worse than it was when you were a kid. back in the day, "...getting high meant swinging at the playgrounds. the worst thing you could get from a girl was cooties. race issues were who could run the fastest. the only thing you smoked was the tires on your bike. life was so simple and carefree..."

...some of the people that you used to "hate" become the people that you end up talking to more than most people. some of the people you used to "love" become the farthest from what you could call a friend. you never know what's gonna happen to your relationships/friendships, so don't think that you can just walk away nd they'll still be waiting there for you any time you wanna come back. maybe you're not worth it, or maybe you just failed to realize that they were worth it.

...i'm never gonna get over the memories. i'm over the boy, forsure. but every now nd then, i tend to reminisce, nd i often wish we could just go back. i'm through, nd i know it, i know i couldn't go through it all again, but something about it all just keeps pulling me back. my heart aches when i think of it, when i think of him, nd when i think of everything we went through together. why am i blogging about this ? who knows. maybe i'm just bored. nd maybe i'm just so freakin' lonely.

...i'm runnin' outta things to say. so i'm just gonna talk about my day again. nah, nevermind. there's nothing important goin' on haha. jess, i'd say congrats buuuuut naaaah ;)

peace outt !
. lyd ! <3