hello again

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Dear Diary,
it's 1:11 am and i still have things to do, but i saw you & i wanted to write. i seem to have lost a dollar. it was in my wallet, but it's not there anymore. maybe i just forgot what i did with it...i went out to buy beads today. well technically it was yesterday. i'm gonna make a bracelet for hon. & i went to souplantation with jess & her family. kevin lim didn't come...also, our idea for art was stolen, i'd say, but i'm still proud of my uke & i'm still gonna continue with it. so anyways, you seem to make me wanna share about my boy problems. there's just something about you...is it your disarming smile & your comforting outspread arms ? haha justkidding, you're a book ! so anyways, i just wanna share about a particular someone. idk if people would know who i'm talking about, but whatevers, hopefully they don't ;) so there's this guy. i liked him for...i don't even know. a couple of months ? maybe two. i thought things were fine. we were talking like we had known each other for quite a while at times, and it seemed as if he enjoyed talking to me. at times i even thought, maybe he likes me too. so i guess that's my, like, jasper-itis kicking in again. OVERTHINKING TO THE MAX. the littlest thing he says, i assume, maybe he's hinting at me that he likes me? well i guess not. i wish i never liked him in the first place. he's the reason i'm as close to kevinlim as i am. but i also feel like he's the reason i've been drifting from the group. i don't even know...life's so confusing when it comes to boys. haha, they're probably thinking the same about us girls. but idk, i just feel so awkward around him now, i hate it. i wish he never knew. oh how different things would be...then there's this other girl i think he likes..it's just all so complicated & i wish i just didn't care at all. but i do. & it sucks. fml much ? hey diary, thanks for listening :) <3

- lyd <3