lyd: _______'s one of those guys where like. when you first meet him, you're not gonna understand why i like him at all
lyd: but there's so much about him that just blows my mind away
lyd: he's sucha dorkk
lyd: all these years i've known him, he's always been able to make me laugh
lyd: he's super smart
lyd: his jokes, his magic tricks, like omg he's hilarious :]
lyd: just thinking about him makes me smile
lyd: no joke, he's super dorky
lyd: we spent the first half hour of 2008 laughing at his magic tricks :]
lyd: and we plan to do the same for 2010
lyd: cuhs we sleepover on new years eve
lyd: he can be really sweet too hahaha
lyd: i remember we were doing this skit one year for ev night and he was jesus
lyd: at one of the practices there was something about him that just made him seem so gentle omg
lyd: that was one of the days i just fell for him all over again
lyd: i've never been able to say much for why i like a guy
lyd: they ask me why i like them
lyd: and i never have an answer
lyd: but for _______, i've got memories from years on end
lyd: those little things that just make my heart leap or somethin' yaknow
lyd: the first time i saw him wear jeans :]
lyd: he's just the best loll
lyd: i guess that's why i could never get over him
lyd: i just remembered one more thing about _______ :]
lyd: so the thing about _______
lyd: he cares about me
lyd: hehehe everytime he sees "fml" or something on my status
lyd: he ims me and says, "don't say that" LOL
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
sorry blogspot
i'll be trying tumblr for a while, though i might still post here
i'm more used this this anyways, lol
but i always feel like i'm talking to myself LOL
cuhs i'm a loser.
so yeah, tumblr, here i come.
but i feel so lost on it. feel like i don't know how to do anything on it
haven't tried something new online in a while
just started twitter & tumblr tonight, still tryna put off the facebook
whatevers, we'll see what happens :)
peace out
love, lyd <3
i'm more used this this anyways, lol
but i always feel like i'm talking to myself LOL
cuhs i'm a loser.
so yeah, tumblr, here i come.
but i feel so lost on it. feel like i don't know how to do anything on it
haven't tried something new online in a while
just started twitter & tumblr tonight, still tryna put off the facebook
whatevers, we'll see what happens :)
peace out
love, lyd <3
Monday, November 16, 2009
it's funny how
a christian perspective can change everything
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation ; the old has gone, the new has come" 2 Corintians 5:17
there's a verse our fellowship has memorized, the first one to be exact.
but it's so true. it's like, when you have Christ in you, you really are just completely different. i've recently really really realized this, and i believe it is quite mindboggling. "mindboggling" ; what a cool word :) it is truly amazing the way God works in each and every one of our lives. i feel like this past year, i've been experiencing Him in more ways than i've every really noticed in my past. in times of stress and utter misery, i cry out to Him and i know He's there. i often feel so alone ; like nobody's really there for me, and that i have no one that i can just..go to & talk to about absolutely anything and everything. every single time, the Holy Spirit moves within me & reminds me that He's there. He's there for me to talk to, to vent to, to laugh with, He's my best friend, and no matter how horribly i might treat Him, no matter just how many times i can forget about Him, He's always been and always will be there for me. i just don't understand what it is about me that He could ever love. but i've grown to just accept that He loves me ; He loves me for who i am, what He's made me. He doesn't need for me to be perfect, becuhs well, that's just impossible. paul says in 1 timothy 1:15, "Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst." i've read this verse time and time again, but it's never really occurred to me that it can apply to my life somehow. now that i think about it, it's really easy for me to say that i'm the worst sinner there is. compare who i am now to the girl i always was before, back in elementary school, even middle school. i've changed a lot, and i'd say it's for the worse. everything i do now is probably at least a bit more secular than the things i'd do when i was younger. i used to hate lying. i used to believe i'd never ever cuss in my entire life. i used to hate backstabbers and hypocrites. i used to let my mom pick out my clothes and not care that i looked good when i walked out of the house. i used to always, well usually, listen to my parents ; do what they told me to do, and not do what they told me not to do. "so take a look at me now, there's just an empty space, there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face." no just kidding. but take a look at me now. if you've grown up with me, you'll see the difference. if you're a christian yourself, you'll see the difference. how many times have i lied to my parents about who i'm going out with ? countless times. count how many times you see a cuss word in my blog. if i gave you a nickel for every bad word you saw, i'd probably be way more broke than i already am now. i admit, i do talk behind people's backs. i say one thing, and i do another. i never take my own advice. i spend half the time looking in the mirror, worrying about how "ugly" i am. i ignore my parents a lot now, or just don't obey what they tell me to do. sometimes i feel like i've lost my respect for them. but i know it's still there. "honor your father and your mother" the first commandment with a promise, in exodus 20:12. i know that verse still matters to me, i just don't always show it, and i often forget it myself.
if you read my short blog on friday, you can see that i was hating myself. i felt like there are so many things about me that people could hate. and i felt like there are so many things about me that people do hate. but funny thing, God takes dabbie to church with me on saturday, and coincidentally, alex is sick so we don't have our memory verse talk. instead we split into our groups and talk about 2 corinthians 5:17. we talk about how God made us in His own image, and if we think lowly of ourselves, then we're thinking lowly of Him and what He's given us. it's like if i think i'm ugly or fat, i'm criticizing God's work. but it's crazy how He reminded me of this the day after i blogged about hating myself, yaknow ? He is truly, truly amazing and i find it extremely, completely mindboggling. LOL.
God's love for me is uhm..uncomprehendable ? LOL idk what word to use. no matter how many times i fall, He's there to catch me and to bring me back to where He knows i need to be. this past year, i've been going kinda back and forth. i'll fall behind, and He'll bring me back. then i'll fall behind, and once again He'll bring me back. and it just keeps going and going. i can't wait til the day i can barely fall behind, but right now, at least i'm working on it right :) before this roller coaster of a relationship with Him, it was like..idk, a train ? LOL i wasn't feeling anything, and it was just going straight. stuck on the ground, never going up. so i've gone from a train to a roller coaster. hopefully one day i'll be on a never-landing plane :) i'll take off and then i'll just stay up there LOL hmm, well it's good to be kinda back. kinda back to where i belong, under His control somewhat. and hopefully one day i don't have to add on the "somewhat" haha. but i've been trying to cuss less. and idk about the lying or the hypocrisy or whatever, but i've been trying to respect my parents more, and to not talk about people behind their backs.. as much. hahah, hey i'm working on it.
so like yeah. i'm feeling pretty good at the moment i guess. although it's late and i still have lots of homework to do, boy problems, and a cake to frost LOL
peace outt
lydmonster :)
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation ; the old has gone, the new has come" 2 Corintians 5:17
there's a verse our fellowship has memorized, the first one to be exact.
but it's so true. it's like, when you have Christ in you, you really are just completely different. i've recently really really realized this, and i believe it is quite mindboggling. "mindboggling" ; what a cool word :) it is truly amazing the way God works in each and every one of our lives. i feel like this past year, i've been experiencing Him in more ways than i've every really noticed in my past. in times of stress and utter misery, i cry out to Him and i know He's there. i often feel so alone ; like nobody's really there for me, and that i have no one that i can just..go to & talk to about absolutely anything and everything. every single time, the Holy Spirit moves within me & reminds me that He's there. He's there for me to talk to, to vent to, to laugh with, He's my best friend, and no matter how horribly i might treat Him, no matter just how many times i can forget about Him, He's always been and always will be there for me. i just don't understand what it is about me that He could ever love. but i've grown to just accept that He loves me ; He loves me for who i am, what He's made me. He doesn't need for me to be perfect, becuhs well, that's just impossible. paul says in 1 timothy 1:15, "Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst." i've read this verse time and time again, but it's never really occurred to me that it can apply to my life somehow. now that i think about it, it's really easy for me to say that i'm the worst sinner there is. compare who i am now to the girl i always was before, back in elementary school, even middle school. i've changed a lot, and i'd say it's for the worse. everything i do now is probably at least a bit more secular than the things i'd do when i was younger. i used to hate lying. i used to believe i'd never ever cuss in my entire life. i used to hate backstabbers and hypocrites. i used to let my mom pick out my clothes and not care that i looked good when i walked out of the house. i used to always, well usually, listen to my parents ; do what they told me to do, and not do what they told me not to do. "so take a look at me now, there's just an empty space, there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face." no just kidding. but take a look at me now. if you've grown up with me, you'll see the difference. if you're a christian yourself, you'll see the difference. how many times have i lied to my parents about who i'm going out with ? countless times. count how many times you see a cuss word in my blog. if i gave you a nickel for every bad word you saw, i'd probably be way more broke than i already am now. i admit, i do talk behind people's backs. i say one thing, and i do another. i never take my own advice. i spend half the time looking in the mirror, worrying about how "ugly" i am. i ignore my parents a lot now, or just don't obey what they tell me to do. sometimes i feel like i've lost my respect for them. but i know it's still there. "honor your father and your mother" the first commandment with a promise, in exodus 20:12. i know that verse still matters to me, i just don't always show it, and i often forget it myself.
if you read my short blog on friday, you can see that i was hating myself. i felt like there are so many things about me that people could hate. and i felt like there are so many things about me that people do hate. but funny thing, God takes dabbie to church with me on saturday, and coincidentally, alex is sick so we don't have our memory verse talk. instead we split into our groups and talk about 2 corinthians 5:17. we talk about how God made us in His own image, and if we think lowly of ourselves, then we're thinking lowly of Him and what He's given us. it's like if i think i'm ugly or fat, i'm criticizing God's work. but it's crazy how He reminded me of this the day after i blogged about hating myself, yaknow ? He is truly, truly amazing and i find it extremely, completely mindboggling. LOL.
God's love for me is uhm..uncomprehendable ? LOL idk what word to use. no matter how many times i fall, He's there to catch me and to bring me back to where He knows i need to be. this past year, i've been going kinda back and forth. i'll fall behind, and He'll bring me back. then i'll fall behind, and once again He'll bring me back. and it just keeps going and going. i can't wait til the day i can barely fall behind, but right now, at least i'm working on it right :) before this roller coaster of a relationship with Him, it was like..idk, a train ? LOL i wasn't feeling anything, and it was just going straight. stuck on the ground, never going up. so i've gone from a train to a roller coaster. hopefully one day i'll be on a never-landing plane :) i'll take off and then i'll just stay up there LOL hmm, well it's good to be kinda back. kinda back to where i belong, under His control somewhat. and hopefully one day i don't have to add on the "somewhat" haha. but i've been trying to cuss less. and idk about the lying or the hypocrisy or whatever, but i've been trying to respect my parents more, and to not talk about people behind their backs.. as much. hahah, hey i'm working on it.
so like yeah. i'm feeling pretty good at the moment i guess. although it's late and i still have lots of homework to do, boy problems, and a cake to frost LOL
peace outt
lydmonster :)
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
OH MAN
souplan was FUH-UUN. LOL
+ brendon [is that how you spell it :)] & edward crack me up LOL yes i was sweating -_- LOLOLLL
+ kelly chaaaaan <3 hehehehe
+ OH EM GEE. BRIAN EDWARDS AND HIS MILK. AND HIS MILK TEA. OMG LOL HE'S QUITE THE HILARIOUSNESS.
+ melissa kamiyami, oh my so indecisive ;D nope, not the winter.
+ hahahah the big hibernating teddy bear didn't even know he fell asleep -_- LOL :)
+ aw justin hehehe "<3" i had a great time tonight ;) LOLOL "selene. i mean..katherine..uhhh"
i ate too much. too bad i went so late, coulda spent more time with tennis ? :(
lotsa fuun though :) alyssa, benson, nick, frances, and all the people on the other side LOL and my brother & friends.
PEACE, LOVE, AND AJ
or PEACE, LOVE, AND LOL
:):)
- lyd <3
today was a good daay :)
feels good amidst all this chaos in my life
+ brendon [is that how you spell it :)] & edward crack me up LOL yes i was sweating -_- LOLOLLL
+ kelly chaaaaan <3 hehehehe
+ OH EM GEE. BRIAN EDWARDS AND HIS MILK. AND HIS MILK TEA. OMG LOL HE'S QUITE THE HILARIOUSNESS.
+ melissa kamiyami, oh my so indecisive ;D nope, not the winter.
+ hahahah the big hibernating teddy bear didn't even know he fell asleep -_- LOL :)
+ aw justin hehehe "<3" i had a great time tonight ;) LOLOL "selene. i mean..katherine..uhhh"
i ate too much. too bad i went so late, coulda spent more time with tennis ? :(
lotsa fuun though :) alyssa, benson, nick, frances, and all the people on the other side LOL and my brother & friends.
PEACE, LOVE, AND AJ
or PEACE, LOVE, AND LOL
:):)
- lyd <3
today was a good daay :)
feels good amidst all this chaos in my life
it's good to be back :)
missed you guys so much <3
LOL i didn't notice mar was wearing her twin day shirt today :)
and here's me with aj rafael & jr aquino :) didn't get one with derek portea though :(
oh what a day :)
so like. i was just on the phone
so i don't really feel like blogging anymore
LOL
whatevers
so today was a pretty good day :)
sub in hiett's but still had a pop quiz. eeeefffff -_-
mm teen forum all daay. elliott [is that how you spell it ?] was cool, mr. phillips is always fun LOL, those two ladies were kinda like. idk they didn't appeal to me too much, especially the therapist -_-, aaaaaand wilson was aaight :) kinda reminds me of someone but idk who haha
aj rafael, jr aquino, and derek portea were there omg :) so like. i TOTALLY jammed with them today. SO amazing. as edward says "how many people can say they jammed with aj rafael" :):):) yeeeeee ! hehe it took me the longest time to get the nerve to go up to them though, thanks to alyssa for actually asking/telling them for mee :) so we sang "i just want you", then ran outta time cuhs nutrition was over. omg i blanked out in the middle but aj was like, "i'ss aaight. that was good" then he said to JRA, "help her out yeah ?" LOL idk, maybe he said something else. THEN after the teen forum, derek portea was performing & people requested "my everything" by randolph permejo & cathy nguyen. he asked if anyone knew cathy's part, so joan nd i went up :) OMG SO LIKE WE TOTALLY PERFORMED WITH DEREK PORTEA LOL. funstuff :) i, once again, got lost on the lyrics -_- LOL but luckily i had joan :) mmmmmmmmmmmmm lets see. well derek remembered my name LOL aand yeah :) i'm so happy LOL
hung out with marielydab at lunch :) funstuff funstuff, haven't done that in a while :) i missed them so <3 LOL but that was nice haha
kinda caught up with kevin lim again :) turns out we've both been wanting to call each other ! LOL <3 i miss him sooooo muuuuuch ! needa hang with him sometime sooooon. LOVE YOUUUU KEVIN LIM :) <3
i think i'll be posting two "a whole new world" vids today, if i don't procrastinate anymore LOL and i might post my sideways vids of aj & jra nd derek performing. hopefully i'll get the vids of me singing ;)
souplantation lateeeeer. mal's not going with me anymore :( neither is brian. or panda. or dabbie. thanks guys. LOL or jenchen :(
PEACE OUTS
love, lyd <3
so i don't really feel like blogging anymore
LOL
whatevers
so today was a pretty good day :)
sub in hiett's but still had a pop quiz. eeeefffff -_-
mm teen forum all daay. elliott [is that how you spell it ?] was cool, mr. phillips is always fun LOL, those two ladies were kinda like. idk they didn't appeal to me too much, especially the therapist -_-, aaaaaand wilson was aaight :) kinda reminds me of someone but idk who haha
aj rafael, jr aquino, and derek portea were there omg :) so like. i TOTALLY jammed with them today. SO amazing. as edward says "how many people can say they jammed with aj rafael" :):):) yeeeeee ! hehe it took me the longest time to get the nerve to go up to them though, thanks to alyssa for actually asking/telling them for mee :) so we sang "i just want you", then ran outta time cuhs nutrition was over. omg i blanked out in the middle but aj was like, "i'ss aaight. that was good" then he said to JRA, "help her out yeah ?" LOL idk, maybe he said something else. THEN after the teen forum, derek portea was performing & people requested "my everything" by randolph permejo & cathy nguyen. he asked if anyone knew cathy's part, so joan nd i went up :) OMG SO LIKE WE TOTALLY PERFORMED WITH DEREK PORTEA LOL. funstuff :) i, once again, got lost on the lyrics -_- LOL but luckily i had joan :) mmmmmmmmmmmmm lets see. well derek remembered my name LOL aand yeah :) i'm so happy LOL
hung out with marielydab at lunch :) funstuff funstuff, haven't done that in a while :) i missed them so <3 LOL but that was nice haha
kinda caught up with kevin lim again :) turns out we've both been wanting to call each other ! LOL <3 i miss him sooooo muuuuuch ! needa hang with him sometime sooooon. LOVE YOUUUU KEVIN LIM :) <3
i think i'll be posting two "a whole new world" vids today, if i don't procrastinate anymore LOL and i might post my sideways vids of aj & jra nd derek performing. hopefully i'll get the vids of me singing ;)
souplantation lateeeeer. mal's not going with me anymore :( neither is brian. or panda. or dabbie. thanks guys. LOL or jenchen :(
PEACE OUTS
love, lyd <3
Monday, November 9, 2009
Sunday, November 8, 2009
ELMO !
LOLOL OMG i like totally got excited when i saw this :)
started bouncin' in my chair nd errthaaang ;)
i absolutely LOVE elmo :) <3
started bouncin' in my chair nd errthaaang ;)
i absolutely LOVE elmo :) <3
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
basketball
i miss real practice.
i miss offseason practice, with all three teams together.
i miss practicing right after school in the gym, then weight training or conditioning.
things better get better..
had fun today with them booys :)
my eye was KILLING me but eh, i managed i guess. hahahah even though i sucked baaad
'tis ohkay brucemonster, i believe in you :D
peace out
love, lyd <3
the google thingy hasn't changed yet. LOL
i miss offseason practice, with all three teams together.
i miss practicing right after school in the gym, then weight training or conditioning.
things better get better..
had fun today with them booys :)
my eye was KILLING me but eh, i managed i guess. hahahah even though i sucked baaad
'tis ohkay brucemonster, i believe in you :D
peace out
love, lyd <3
the google thingy hasn't changed yet. LOL
Thursday, November 5, 2009
why must i hate november so ?
i haven't exactly had the greatest week
and i don't remember november being the best month in 2008 either.
well, lookin' forward to the second half of november, hoping that it'll get better.
and hopefully next week too.
111009 souplantation fundraiser
111109 meet henry at shadow oak park :)
111409 bestfriends birthday // disneyland ? hopefully
112409 cada conferencee // first scrimmage :o
112509 asb thanksgiving bonding !
112609 thanksgivinggg <3
and we also have a turkey bowl in mind for church, hopefully it'll happen this yeaar !
so excited for these upcoming events :) hehehe
todaaaay : mixed emotions ?
school was fine until 7th period came along.
first - not too shabbay ;)
second - hahahha it was quite fun, lots of laughs
third - my highest score yet for calc hehe. but i coulda done better -_-
fourth - the test wasn't as hard as phillip made it sound. hahaha
fifth - mm pretty much a free period kinda. did like, nothing. hahahaha
lunch - walked around with mal, alice, and bonnie. LOL then chilled with bestfriend and henry nd theem :)
sixth - uh i don't even remember LOL it was just not too shabbay too. LOL
then came basketball. once again, we were outside -_- i have a project & i'm supposed to go to the library with dab & bestfriend & brucemonster at 3:15 or whenever practice is over. i go to the gym and coach carr is like, hey, you guys are gonna scrimmage varsity today ! SAY WUUUUUHT ?! first of all, we haven't had real practice in weeeks. we're unprepared. completely. second, i have a project ! so during practice, i was sooo confused. cuhs dicey wasn't there, so we were with bobbi today. but she doesn't know what we're doing either cuhs she's not supposed to be our coach. hahahah omg. well we finally figure it out. it's 3:03, the bell rings. my group doesn't show up so i'm like ugh i told them to wait for me. we head to the gym, the scrimmage starts. i see my group watching. i tell them to go cuhs we're scrimmaging and i don't want them to wait too long. after a while they leave and turns out they're at daniel's house. that pisses me off. but before i find this out, the scrimmage was NOT the best part of my day. it's not cuhs we lost. it's cuhs we sucked, pretty bad. LOL just kidding. the reason i was so mad was cuhs well, monica was pissing me off again -_- and on top of that i had like NO playing time and there were only like 6 of us. like seriously, brielle's on frosh and SHE played more than me. like, what the fuck, right ? ugh whatever. we're not making any of our shots, and they're making a loooot. we're not calling ANYTHING so we're all confuzzled as heck. none of them, i should say, becuhs i wasn't even playing -_-, looked like they really knew what they were doing. well yeah. i was just pissed is all. so after, i find out that they're at daniel's house and i get really mad cuhs i don't think they're working. i thought it was just my group + daniel. i call dylan for daniel's address or whatever cuhs idk where he lives and i don't wanna talk to my group members. i show up and turns out daniel's whole group is there. along with nicole kanow, who i haven't talked to directly in weeks, maybe months idk. finally we start heading towards the library, and things become okay.
AT the library, bomb time :) hahahah i love our group <3 DLB2 ?! LOL idk i just made that up right now. but after, i ask my mom if i can go to disney for bestfriends birthday, she says no :( idk, hopefully when i ask her again she'll say yes.. i went to dab's house kinda LOL i was outside of it hahaha cuhs i forgot my basketball stuff at the library and she took it THANKS TWIN <3 aaaand i haven't started my homework yet -_- i'm screwed LOL but whatevers. today was okaay
i fuhreaking love google. HAHAHA
peace out
love, lyd <3
p.s. feel better bestfrieeeeend <3 it happens to everyone :)
p.s.s. to mar : don't worry about her, and hope your leg gets better <3
peaceouts ! love yaa
and i don't remember november being the best month in 2008 either.
well, lookin' forward to the second half of november, hoping that it'll get better.
and hopefully next week too.
111009 souplantation fundraiser
111109 meet henry at shadow oak park :)
111409 bestfriends birthday // disneyland ? hopefully
112409 cada conferencee // first scrimmage :o
112509 asb thanksgiving bonding !
112609 thanksgivinggg <3
and we also have a turkey bowl in mind for church, hopefully it'll happen this yeaar !
so excited for these upcoming events :) hehehe
todaaaay : mixed emotions ?
school was fine until 7th period came along.
first - not too shabbay ;)
second - hahahha it was quite fun, lots of laughs
third - my highest score yet for calc hehe. but i coulda done better -_-
fourth - the test wasn't as hard as phillip made it sound. hahaha
fifth - mm pretty much a free period kinda. did like, nothing. hahahaha
lunch - walked around with mal, alice, and bonnie. LOL then chilled with bestfriend and henry nd theem :)
sixth - uh i don't even remember LOL it was just not too shabbay too. LOL
then came basketball. once again, we were outside -_- i have a project & i'm supposed to go to the library with dab & bestfriend & brucemonster at 3:15 or whenever practice is over. i go to the gym and coach carr is like, hey, you guys are gonna scrimmage varsity today ! SAY WUUUUUHT ?! first of all, we haven't had real practice in weeeks. we're unprepared. completely. second, i have a project ! so during practice, i was sooo confused. cuhs dicey wasn't there, so we were with bobbi today. but she doesn't know what we're doing either cuhs she's not supposed to be our coach. hahahah omg. well we finally figure it out. it's 3:03, the bell rings. my group doesn't show up so i'm like ugh i told them to wait for me. we head to the gym, the scrimmage starts. i see my group watching. i tell them to go cuhs we're scrimmaging and i don't want them to wait too long. after a while they leave and turns out they're at daniel's house. that pisses me off. but before i find this out, the scrimmage was NOT the best part of my day. it's not cuhs we lost. it's cuhs we sucked, pretty bad. LOL just kidding. the reason i was so mad was cuhs well, monica was pissing me off again -_- and on top of that i had like NO playing time and there were only like 6 of us. like seriously, brielle's on frosh and SHE played more than me. like, what the fuck, right ? ugh whatever. we're not making any of our shots, and they're making a loooot. we're not calling ANYTHING so we're all confuzzled as heck. none of them, i should say, becuhs i wasn't even playing -_-, looked like they really knew what they were doing. well yeah. i was just pissed is all. so after, i find out that they're at daniel's house and i get really mad cuhs i don't think they're working. i thought it was just my group + daniel. i call dylan for daniel's address or whatever cuhs idk where he lives and i don't wanna talk to my group members. i show up and turns out daniel's whole group is there. along with nicole kanow, who i haven't talked to directly in weeks, maybe months idk. finally we start heading towards the library, and things become okay.
AT the library, bomb time :) hahahah i love our group <3 DLB2 ?! LOL idk i just made that up right now. but after, i ask my mom if i can go to disney for bestfriends birthday, she says no :( idk, hopefully when i ask her again she'll say yes.. i went to dab's house kinda LOL i was outside of it hahaha cuhs i forgot my basketball stuff at the library and she took it THANKS TWIN <3 aaaand i haven't started my homework yet -_- i'm screwed LOL but whatevers. today was okaay
i fuhreaking love google. HAHAHA
peace out
love, lyd <3
p.s. feel better bestfrieeeeend <3 it happens to everyone :)
p.s.s. to mar : don't worry about her, and hope your leg gets better <3
peaceouts ! love yaa
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
sorry
about my post yesterday -_-
i was in a bad mood & when i'm in a bad mood i use bad words.
my apologies.
so i just wanted to blog about how FAIL my stargazing was.
here's what i vented to bestfriend
omgitsalyd: my stargazing was a fail -_-
omgitsalyd: okay so hiett said no distractions
omgitsalyd: "tell your parents not to bother you"
omgitsalyd: so i told my parents not to bother me
omgitsalyd: i told them at dinner
omgitsalyd: so like, at 9 something my mom's like "ei, jiu dian le ! LYDIAAAAA LYDIAAAAAAA JIU DIAN LE NI ZAI NA LI"
omgitsalyd: "LYDIAAAA"
omgitsalyd: OMG
omgitsalyd: so i'm like, "HUH"
omgitsalyd: and she comes outside and she's like, OH you're outside when did you go outside
omgitsalyd: and she starts talking
omgitsalyd: and i'm like OMG YOU'RE NOT SUPPOESD TO BOTHER ME
omgitsalyd: and she's like LEMME FINISH
omgitsalyd: so i'm like NO YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO BOTHER ME
omgitsalyd: om
omgitsalyd: *omg
omgitsalyd: so for the next ten minutes i'm frustrated that she bothered me
omgitsalyd: and on top of that, my neighbor's radio was on.
omgitsalyd: my parents' tv was on
omgitsalyd: and my parents were talking
omgitsalyd: a couple of minutes ago my brother comes home. i hear the garage and i hear him come in and talk. he asks for something to eat
omgitsalyd: my dad ordered my camera and it came in. my brother saw it and asked about it
omgitsalyd: SO DISTRACTING
omgitsalyd: so i plug my ears
omgitsalyd: there's also train noises
omgitsalyd: anyways. there's planes and stuff
briian: ur having major venting session
omgitsalyd: OMG THE WORLD IS SO DISTRACTING
omgitsalyd: yes i am.
briian: wow ur star gazing was preety fail
briian: LOL
omgitsalyd: AND my parents wouldn't let me go to the park -_- where i'm sure things would've been better
omgitsalyd: YES IT WAS >:O
briian: oh why not the park?
omgitsalyd: becuhs it's late at night
briian: oh wow [
omgitsalyd: my dad says chinese people don't like going out at night..
omgitsalyd: wth
omgitsalyd: hahaha
omgitsalyd: omg it's a hw assignment !
briian: my parents would do the same
briian: so u just layed on ur drive way?
omgitsalyd: hahahah in the backyard
omgitsalyd: becuhs my frontdoor neighbor's radio was bothering me
briian: OH(x i see
briian: was it 97.1
omgitsalyd: NO IT WAS ABOUT OBAMA AND DEMOCRATS LOL
briian: WOWOWOWO
briian: -_-
i was in a bad mood & when i'm in a bad mood i use bad words.
my apologies.
so i just wanted to blog about how FAIL my stargazing was.
here's what i vented to bestfriend
omgitsalyd: my stargazing was a fail -_-
omgitsalyd: okay so hiett said no distractions
omgitsalyd: "tell your parents not to bother you"
omgitsalyd: so i told my parents not to bother me
omgitsalyd: i told them at dinner
omgitsalyd: so like, at 9 something my mom's like "ei, jiu dian le ! LYDIAAAAA LYDIAAAAAAA JIU DIAN LE NI ZAI NA LI"
omgitsalyd: "LYDIAAAA"
omgitsalyd: OMG
omgitsalyd: so i'm like, "HUH"
omgitsalyd: and she comes outside and she's like, OH you're outside when did you go outside
omgitsalyd: and she starts talking
omgitsalyd: and i'm like OMG YOU'RE NOT SUPPOESD TO BOTHER ME
omgitsalyd: and she's like LEMME FINISH
omgitsalyd: so i'm like NO YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO BOTHER ME
omgitsalyd: om
omgitsalyd: *omg
omgitsalyd: so for the next ten minutes i'm frustrated that she bothered me
omgitsalyd: and on top of that, my neighbor's radio was on.
omgitsalyd: my parents' tv was on
omgitsalyd: and my parents were talking
omgitsalyd: a couple of minutes ago my brother comes home. i hear the garage and i hear him come in and talk. he asks for something to eat
omgitsalyd: my dad ordered my camera and it came in. my brother saw it and asked about it
omgitsalyd: SO DISTRACTING
omgitsalyd: so i plug my ears
omgitsalyd: there's also train noises
omgitsalyd: anyways. there's planes and stuff
briian: ur having major venting session
omgitsalyd: OMG THE WORLD IS SO DISTRACTING
omgitsalyd: yes i am.
briian: wow ur star gazing was preety fail
briian: LOL
omgitsalyd: AND my parents wouldn't let me go to the park -_- where i'm sure things would've been better
omgitsalyd: YES IT WAS >:O
briian: oh why not the park?
omgitsalyd: becuhs it's late at night
briian: oh wow [
omgitsalyd: my dad says chinese people don't like going out at night..
omgitsalyd: wth
omgitsalyd: hahaha
omgitsalyd: omg it's a hw assignment !
briian: my parents would do the same
briian: so u just layed on ur drive way?
omgitsalyd: hahahah in the backyard
omgitsalyd: becuhs my frontdoor neighbor's radio was bothering me
briian: OH(x i see
briian: was it 97.1
omgitsalyd: NO IT WAS ABOUT OBAMA AND DEMOCRATS LOL
briian: WOWOWOWO
briian: -_-
Monday, November 2, 2009
oh, what a day
first period english - i never enjoy this class anyways.
second period government - i was so scared i was getting docked participation points. probably was -_- yeah guys, that's what we get for finishing early..
third period calculus - i'm failing this class. how am i supposed to enjoy it ?
fourth period chemistry - meh
fifth period asb - i got fat. my second taco wasn't so great LOL then sachie just has to go and be a bitch and ruin the sophomores' lives. just cuhs she's older and thinks she's superior and doesn't give a shit about us. yeah whatever
lunch asb meeting - at the end sharon asks us to see our phone batteries cuhs hers got changed or something like that. like seriously, does she expect us to have it ? and me of all people, she keeps in becuhs i don't know how to open my battery or whatever. yeah if you're not stupid you'll realize that if i don't know how to open it then how could it be me -_-
sixth period chinese - albert called me fat and i probably got class points marked down for talking to harrison. just didn't have a good time in that class today.
seventh period basketball - i was stuck as a 2 becuhs julienne claims position 4. okay, so i've never been a 2 before but who cares, i deal with it. but i wonder why i don't get to be a 3 when i'm one of the shorter posts..and i used to be a 3 anyways -_-
after school - monica just has to go and be a bitch and tell me straight up, you have no ball handling skills, that's why. okay yeah i know i'm not a good ball handler, but the way you said it was really bitchy.
i had all five books to carry home today. while i'm getting on the car, my head bumps into the doorway or whatever. then after my dad picks me up, we're on nogales and he almost fucking crashes. and he blames the other car for it. yeah i'm pretty sure it was your fault -_- i get home, and i'm crying in the shower. oh, what a day.
and i feel like i'm not as close to mallorie anymore either. idk, maybe it was just today. worst day of my life ? sure feels like it. and now, time for some homework.
only have practice on wednesday this week -_- and don't know if i can go to either of bestfriend's birthday celebrations :/
hatemyliferightnow.
peace out.
love, lyd <3
p.s. these are fuhreaking good.
pst. my birthday's coming up LOL
second period government - i was so scared i was getting docked participation points. probably was -_- yeah guys, that's what we get for finishing early..
third period calculus - i'm failing this class. how am i supposed to enjoy it ?
fourth period chemistry - meh
fifth period asb - i got fat. my second taco wasn't so great LOL then sachie just has to go and be a bitch and ruin the sophomores' lives. just cuhs she's older and thinks she's superior and doesn't give a shit about us. yeah whatever
lunch asb meeting - at the end sharon asks us to see our phone batteries cuhs hers got changed or something like that. like seriously, does she expect us to have it ? and me of all people, she keeps in becuhs i don't know how to open my battery or whatever. yeah if you're not stupid you'll realize that if i don't know how to open it then how could it be me -_-
sixth period chinese - albert called me fat and i probably got class points marked down for talking to harrison. just didn't have a good time in that class today.
seventh period basketball - i was stuck as a 2 becuhs julienne claims position 4. okay, so i've never been a 2 before but who cares, i deal with it. but i wonder why i don't get to be a 3 when i'm one of the shorter posts..and i used to be a 3 anyways -_-
after school - monica just has to go and be a bitch and tell me straight up, you have no ball handling skills, that's why. okay yeah i know i'm not a good ball handler, but the way you said it was really bitchy.
i had all five books to carry home today. while i'm getting on the car, my head bumps into the doorway or whatever. then after my dad picks me up, we're on nogales and he almost fucking crashes. and he blames the other car for it. yeah i'm pretty sure it was your fault -_- i get home, and i'm crying in the shower. oh, what a day.
and i feel like i'm not as close to mallorie anymore either. idk, maybe it was just today. worst day of my life ? sure feels like it. and now, time for some homework.
only have practice on wednesday this week -_- and don't know if i can go to either of bestfriend's birthday celebrations :/
hatemyliferightnow.
peace out.
love, lyd <3
p.s. these are fuhreaking good.
pst. my birthday's coming up LOL
Sunday, November 1, 2009
keep your coins, i want change
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. Against such things there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23
i used to have at least some of these qualities.
now ?
i feel like i have none.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
:(
i mees jellick.
the good ol' timees :(
freakin' lskdfa;lsdkj
errthang about those days
memories ;;
sometimes they put that smile back on your face
sometimes they just kill you
the good ol' timees :(
freakin' lskdfa;lsdkj
errthang about those days
memories ;;
sometimes they put that smile back on your face
sometimes they just kill you
oh
my goodness.
i made jv :)
so did mal !
yeeeeeee
so freaking excited for season.
it's coming up, so freaking close.
can't wait. omg
we have the best team in the world !
OHBABY BASKETBALL SEASON HERE WE COME >:]
peace outssss
love, lyd <3
p.s. ALBERT ! don't fret, mister. i was pissed when i got that teleparent sent home. LOL
i made jv :)
so did mal !
yeeeeeee
so freaking excited for season.
it's coming up, so freaking close.
can't wait. omg
we have the best team in the world !
OHBABY BASKETBALL SEASON HERE WE COME >:]
peace outssss
love, lyd <3
p.s. ALBERT ! don't fret, mister. i was pissed when i got that teleparent sent home. LOL
Saturday, October 24, 2009
hate
that you're always on my mind.
that thinking of you just always makes me smile.
that i know i can never have you.
eveeeeer. :(
that thinking of you just always makes me smile.
that i know i can never have you.
eveeeeer. :(
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
i'm a little piece of nothing
in this big world of chaos
trying to find my way alone
still dealing with the pain of loss
who's next to me to lend a hand
while i walk this path as best i can
who's there beside me as i stand
who's been through it since it all began
how do i take this step by step
when the world around me is a blur
and go on hoping
while of nothing i can be sure
all i can do is sit and cry
as all my loves are passing me by
what use is there in trying to try
when everything you've lived for has said its final goodbye
looking around me i see no light
my whole world is crashing down on me
everybody's putting me down
when i gave to be the best i could be
why is it so hard to keep on going
to keep my weak emotions from showing
so i guess this is how it feels knowing
that i'm the only one here who isn't growing
i'm a little piece of nothing
in this big world of chaos
but one day i'll be stronger
and show them who's boss
i'm tired of the whole world putting me down
thinking they can always just push me around
i'm tired of the days when i'm wearing a frown
but before they know it i'll be up off the ground
i'll be the one they want to see
the one that makes them want to care
to know the girl they never knew
they passed me by, now they'll stop and stare
i'll show them what i've really got
that they were wrong to take my spot
i'll let them know that i never forgot
when they forced me to follow, to be the robot
i'm not who i was before
i can't take this anymore
in this big world of chaos
trying to find my way alone
still dealing with the pain of loss
who's next to me to lend a hand
while i walk this path as best i can
who's there beside me as i stand
who's been through it since it all began
how do i take this step by step
when the world around me is a blur
and go on hoping
while of nothing i can be sure
all i can do is sit and cry
as all my loves are passing me by
what use is there in trying to try
when everything you've lived for has said its final goodbye
looking around me i see no light
my whole world is crashing down on me
everybody's putting me down
when i gave to be the best i could be
why is it so hard to keep on going
to keep my weak emotions from showing
so i guess this is how it feels knowing
that i'm the only one here who isn't growing
i'm a little piece of nothing
in this big world of chaos
but one day i'll be stronger
and show them who's boss
i'm tired of the whole world putting me down
thinking they can always just push me around
i'm tired of the days when i'm wearing a frown
but before they know it i'll be up off the ground
i'll be the one they want to see
the one that makes them want to care
to know the girl they never knew
they passed me by, now they'll stop and stare
i'll show them what i've really got
that they were wrong to take my spot
i'll let them know that i never forgot
when they forced me to follow, to be the robot
i'm not who i was before
i can't take this anymore
i don't
like him, guys ! hahahahha goooooosh
*cough* MAL & ARIEO *cough*
dinner tonight. way too much food.
THIS IS THE REASON I CAN'T DO ANY PULLUPS >:O
hahaha yeah it's really starting to piss me off how i can't do pullups. and i can do less pushups than last year. i freaking need to stop eating so much ! omg. it's all cuhs i'm too fat and i have too much weight to lift :(
why don't i spend enough time on homework ?
i'm really hoping to finish #29 for calc tonight, and maybe #25, and if possible, more. cuhs i'm so behind D: I'M GOING TO GET AT LEAST A C THIS SEMESTER >:O really now.
aaaaand i needa start reading for gov omg -_-
i'm tired of these low grades and this low gpa.
eff my freaking horrible time management.
SEE, I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE BLOGGING RIGHT NOW >:O
and on top of errthang, i'm freaking moody & pissy. SCREW PERIODS. haha
'tis almost 9:30 and i still needa do calc & gov. and i'm tired. and distracted. and nobody's buying my cookie dough D:
YOGURTLAND FRIDAY OCTOBER 23RD. GOOOOOOOOOO >:] pleaseplease ? go with a flyer & support rowland ! need a flyer ? ASK :)
peace out home boys
thelydmonster
p.s. I MISS KEVIN LIM OMG D:
p.s.s. "hi tito, hi tita ! anapot ? i'm mallorie's ate !" HAHAHAHHAAHHA yeah idk how to spell anapot. HEHEHEHEHE
*cough* MAL & ARIEO *cough*
dinner tonight. way too much food.
THIS IS THE REASON I CAN'T DO ANY PULLUPS >:O
hahaha yeah it's really starting to piss me off how i can't do pullups. and i can do less pushups than last year. i freaking need to stop eating so much ! omg. it's all cuhs i'm too fat and i have too much weight to lift :(
why don't i spend enough time on homework ?
i'm really hoping to finish #29 for calc tonight, and maybe #25, and if possible, more. cuhs i'm so behind D: I'M GOING TO GET AT LEAST A C THIS SEMESTER >:O really now.
aaaaand i needa start reading for gov omg -_-
i'm tired of these low grades and this low gpa.
eff my freaking horrible time management.
SEE, I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE BLOGGING RIGHT NOW >:O
and on top of errthang, i'm freaking moody & pissy. SCREW PERIODS. haha
'tis almost 9:30 and i still needa do calc & gov. and i'm tired. and distracted. and nobody's buying my cookie dough D:
YOGURTLAND FRIDAY OCTOBER 23RD. GOOOOOOOOOO >:] pleaseplease ? go with a flyer & support rowland ! need a flyer ? ASK :)
peace out home boys
thelydmonster
p.s. I MISS KEVIN LIM OMG D:
p.s.s. "hi tito, hi tita ! anapot ? i'm mallorie's ate !" HAHAHAHHAAHHA yeah idk how to spell anapot. HEHEHEHEHE
Friday, October 16, 2009
walnut
sucks butt >:]
haha no jaykay.
but 27-7 we pwn heheheheh GO RAIDERS !
today was a really good day for me :)
i got cookies from lil <3 THANKS SO MUCH I LOVE YOU HEHE
then soda & costco pizza for lunch instead of lamo school lunch
first period wasn't too bad, we had a creepy sub but whatevers :)
second period was nice hahaha we watched west wing >:] goodstuff !
third period test, eh not too bad i guess. i finished more than usual
fourth period haha we had like a free 20 minutes doing nothing.
fifth period pizza party ! MRS. PHILLIPS :) <3 AND i got cookies. heheheheh those cookies made my day <3
sixth period was a little stressful, but i think i came through alright :)
basketball practice was okay haha. sprints on the football field, not too bad. i think we shoulda done more >:] el pollo loco, THANKS MR. CARR :D & brownies, THANKS CAROL >:]
arieo came over after, we each took a shower & went to mcdonalds & headed over to walnut high school
OMG I HATE THEIR TIGHT SECURITY >:O those security people can go suck it. omg
saw arnold and chris yu today ! yeeeeeee it's been a while :)
stupid chris yu, you're sucha loser. hahahaha
don't even say bye -_-
so guys, vote for WUP ! www.wintheultimateprom.com
more info in a previous blog somewhere hahahaha
for john a. rowland high school
yeee baby we can do this
AND buy cookie dough from me yeah ? :D i think it ranges from like $14 to $17 or $18, idk. i needa seeeeell ! :)
ANDANDAND guys, michael ball got injured today at the football game. if you don't know him, i'm sure you've heard his name before. so show him some love & pray for him ! <3
i only have calc & gov hw this weekend >:] hoping for some sunday afternoon basketbaaaaall ! finally !
oh and, i'm still looking for a boy who can sing in korean. preferably a korean boy. HAHA ask me about it if you're interested ? :o
aaaaaaand aj rafael music video contest, now - november 12. i really wanna do this but i can't find anyone that's free on saturday afternoons. interested ? contact me somehow !
that's all for this week's announcements ! ehheheehehe just kidding ;)
PEACE OUT
love, lyd <3
p.s. SERIOUSLY THANKS LIL <3 for the cookies :D
p.s.s. maaaaaan seriously today was a good day >:]
ARIEEEEEEEOOO !
haha no jaykay.
but 27-7 we pwn heheheheh GO RAIDERS !
today was a really good day for me :)
i got cookies from lil <3 THANKS SO MUCH I LOVE YOU HEHE
then soda & costco pizza for lunch instead of lamo school lunch
first period wasn't too bad, we had a creepy sub but whatevers :)
second period was nice hahaha we watched west wing >:] goodstuff !
third period test, eh not too bad i guess. i finished more than usual
fourth period haha we had like a free 20 minutes doing nothing.
fifth period pizza party ! MRS. PHILLIPS :) <3 AND i got cookies. heheheheh those cookies made my day <3
sixth period was a little stressful, but i think i came through alright :)
basketball practice was okay haha. sprints on the football field, not too bad. i think we shoulda done more >:] el pollo loco, THANKS MR. CARR :D & brownies, THANKS CAROL >:]
arieo came over after, we each took a shower & went to mcdonalds & headed over to walnut high school
OMG I HATE THEIR TIGHT SECURITY >:O those security people can go suck it. omg
saw arnold and chris yu today ! yeeeeeee it's been a while :)
stupid chris yu, you're sucha loser. hahahaha
don't even say bye -_-
so guys, vote for WUP ! www.wintheultimateprom.com
more info in a previous blog somewhere hahahaha
for john a. rowland high school
yeee baby we can do this
AND buy cookie dough from me yeah ? :D i think it ranges from like $14 to $17 or $18, idk. i needa seeeeell ! :)
ANDANDAND guys, michael ball got injured today at the football game. if you don't know him, i'm sure you've heard his name before. so show him some love & pray for him ! <3
i only have calc & gov hw this weekend >:] hoping for some sunday afternoon basketbaaaaall ! finally !
oh and, i'm still looking for a boy who can sing in korean. preferably a korean boy. HAHA ask me about it if you're interested ? :o
aaaaaaand aj rafael music video contest, now - november 12. i really wanna do this but i can't find anyone that's free on saturday afternoons. interested ? contact me somehow !
that's all for this week's announcements ! ehheheehehe just kidding ;)
PEACE OUT
love, lyd <3
p.s. SERIOUSLY THANKS LIL <3 for the cookies :D
p.s.s. maaaaaan seriously today was a good day >:]
ARIEEEEEEEOOO !
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
sorry
sometimes i just get pissed and i can't control my anger so i vent.
please excuse my bad language.
please excuse my bad language.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
eff.
omg i'm not too freaking young. i'm a sophomore in high school, i'm almost sixteen. i know what i'm doing. why can't you just let me go out late for once. why can't you just let me relieve my stress for one night. like, what the fuck. you don't ever even tell me when we have plans. i ask you if i can go somewhere, all you say is, "we were supposed to go out and eat with blahblah" like what the fuck you never told me. why don't you ever tell me. you don't tell me i'm busy, then i make plans. that's how my life works okay. that's why i'm gonna die early and get a heart attack. i don't fucking care anymore. what the fuck.
you don't let me wear shorts like above my knees. you won't let me wear this dress i wanna wear. you don't fucking tell me when we have plans. you don't let me drive. you don't let me even fucking pierce my ears. you don't let me go out late with friends. you don't let me go to the beach with no adult supervision. i'm not too fucking young for all of this. can i not have some fun ? i'm a sophomore, and i'm completely stressed out 24/7, all day every day, and you won't let me go out and have some fun with asb. "we have to many bondings" well maybe that's cuhs we're normal high school teenagers who like to hang out with each other and get away from all the stress of school. when i'm 25, are you still gonna say i'm too young ? cuhs i'm not too fucking young to pierce my ears, i'm really not. you question every little thing i do, like making samiches for my friends. why do you need to fucking know about my samiches -_-
you don't let me wear shorts like above my knees. you won't let me wear this dress i wanna wear. you don't fucking tell me when we have plans. you don't let me drive. you don't let me even fucking pierce my ears. you don't let me go out late with friends. you don't let me go to the beach with no adult supervision. i'm not too fucking young for all of this. can i not have some fun ? i'm a sophomore, and i'm completely stressed out 24/7, all day every day, and you won't let me go out and have some fun with asb. "we have to many bondings" well maybe that's cuhs we're normal high school teenagers who like to hang out with each other and get away from all the stress of school. when i'm 25, are you still gonna say i'm too young ? cuhs i'm not too fucking young to pierce my ears, i'm really not. you question every little thing i do, like making samiches for my friends. why do you need to fucking know about my samiches -_-
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Thursday, October 1, 2009
ween 25000 dollah fo' ah scoo ?
start voting for prom today !
GO GO GO VOTE :)
btw, nogales is on the top 10
DO YOU REALLY WANNA LOSE TO THEM ? >:o
and and
happy birfday to my JBABY <3
wtchu, fourteen now ? :O
freshie hehehee
GO GO GO VOTE :)
btw, nogales is on the top 10
DO YOU REALLY WANNA LOSE TO THEM ? >:o
and and
happy birfday to my JBABY <3
wtchu, fourteen now ? :O
freshie hehehee
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
ad;lkfja;sldkj
one in the mornin'
workin' on my poem presentation.
good luck, lyd
hope you don't fail -_-
V
V
V
the chem test.
workin' on my poem presentation.
good luck, lyd
hope you don't fail -_-
V
V
V
the chem test.
Friday, September 25, 2009
hatemylifeeeee.
i honestly wish my life could end right now.
life reeeeally sucks.
and i'm too effing lazy to type it all out.
today i finished my first hot cheeto bag in years.
life reeeeally sucks.
and i'm too effing lazy to type it all out.
today i finished my first hot cheeto bag in years.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
i don't know
what you're thinking right now.
these past two days, i feel like i've been really lost.
i really wanna talk to you, i just don't know what to say.
from what i see, you seem to be doing just fine without me.
but i don't really wanna think that ; maybe it's just me pretending i don't matter.
i haven't started a conversation, neither have you.
it seems to be the only thing on my mind nowadays.
i'm really confused, and scared.
and i really don't know what to do.
if only i could pull the courage outta me to talk to you.
cuhs i really need to.
"It's not that I can't live without you, it's just that I don't want to try."
these past two days, i feel like i've been really lost.
i really wanna talk to you, i just don't know what to say.
from what i see, you seem to be doing just fine without me.
but i don't really wanna think that ; maybe it's just me pretending i don't matter.
i haven't started a conversation, neither have you.
it seems to be the only thing on my mind nowadays.
i'm really confused, and scared.
and i really don't know what to do.
if only i could pull the courage outta me to talk to you.
cuhs i really need to.
"It's not that I can't live without you, it's just that I don't want to try."
Sunday, September 20, 2009
why am i not doing homework ?
i was looking through some friendship quotes to write on kevin lim's birthday card.
and here's what i found :
"The friendship that can cease has never been real."
- Saint Jerome
as i read this i thought of her.
and i knew, right now is just one of those dips on our roller coaster ride of a friendship. in the long run, it'll be okay. this friendship is real, and it doesn't have the ability to cease.
peace out
love, lyd <3
and here's what i found :
"The friendship that can cease has never been real."
- Saint Jerome
as i read this i thought of her.
and i knew, right now is just one of those dips on our roller coaster ride of a friendship. in the long run, it'll be okay. this friendship is real, and it doesn't have the ability to cease.
peace out
love, lyd <3
Saturday, September 19, 2009
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wow that post took me about an hour.
just wanted to say [pretend this is yesterday] happy 18th birthday to kevin lim :) i lahve youuuu <3 !
anddd, my week was horrible, by the way.
i'm excited for best buddies ! hehe
i miss my mei. haven't seen her since like, summer D:
just wanted to say [pretend this is yesterday] happy 18th birthday to kevin lim :) i lahve youuuu <3 !
anddd, my week was horrible, by the way.
i'm excited for best buddies ! hehe
i miss my mei. haven't seen her since like, summer D:
Friday, September 18, 2009
haven't posted in a week
so busy. so stressed. so confused.
mkay so, there's something i think i need to say. i'm not gonna tell you about this. you can read it if you see it, whether you just wanna read my blog, or if he sees it first and tells you to read it. or you could just not see it, and not read it. or see it and not read it. whatever
not including the last couple of months, these past more than three years have been a blast. all throughout alvarado, and my first year at rowland, she's been there for me, every step of the way. it all began in sixth grade, us and our advanced math, gosh. the year flew by and i didn't talk to you becuhs well, i wasn't "allowed" to. summer came a long, and i was talking to thexfatxpig on aim with my first sn ever : cuteaznpride. we talked and we talked, and we got really close. she was pretty much my closest friend that summer, i told her everything, from enoch to wilber to willie to my summer, to, pretty much, life. and that's when it all started, 2006. i went to china that summer, and was there for about a month and a half. missed her a lot while i was gone, but when i came back, i'm pretty sure things were the same. unlike another situation that i'm not going to discuss right now. but anyways, as august 2006 slowly approached, i was excited for school. excited to see all my friends again, excited to finally be at the same school as this y0sunshineexx that's just so good at brightening up my day. i don't quite remember how many classes we had together, but i know forsure yearbook with delia and science with moreno were two. she taught me how to play minesweeper that year, and i got really good at it too. she laughed in that class, oh so much. she complained to me about moreno, how much he hated her and got her in trouble and pissed her off like no other. she was there for me february 2007 when i met him. she was there when i got with him, when he broke up with me in may, when we got back together, and when he broke up with me once again that june. she was there for me when i needed a shoulder to lean on. she brought me up every time i was down. she was there for me when i was hurt and confused. 8th grade came along, we only had one class together. she enduring all my obsessive talk with that one "cute" guy. i told her about the first time i ever talked to him, she was there through all the staring. i remember being on the phone with her that november, 2007. it was a saturday night, and i was asking her whether or not i should tell him how i feel. i told her everything that happened when i did tell him. how my heart was beating at 107842079318472 beats per second or whatever, how my hands were shaking ferociously, how i didn't know exactly what to say. how he asked me to winterformal, but told me he only liked me as a friend. i told her everything that happened four days later, when he told me that he liked me too. she was there for me through it all. she linked our arms for the first time. i told her about the first time we held hands. i told her about how i loved the way he held me. i told her about the closet, and the park. i told her when i had my first kiss. she was there for me when i had to leave for china for the second time. and she was there for me when i came back. she was there when he and i were happy, and she was there when things weren't going so well. she was there for me in august on 2008, when all i could do was cry, and in september, when it was all over. she was there for the next few months, when i was depressed. this is now my first year of high school. we had no classes together. but what does that matter, she was still my best friend. we hung out every day at lunch, usually with my twin. she was there for me when i had that "magical hug", even though she'd make fun of me all the time. she was there for me when that ended too. she was there when i started liking the senior. and she was there when i started liking another one. i remember on some saturday nights, my computer would be off, and i'd just sit on my bed and call her, just to talk. she'd have to go after a while, but that was okay, at least we got to catch up a little bit. i remember her fourteenth birthday at hometown buffet. i couldn't make it, and i sat at the basketball court at church, crying and on the phone. they kept telling me, stop crying lyd, stop crying. at least i saw her for two seconds at the mall. she was the first to call me lyd, and at first, the only. then everyone started calling me lyd. she was there for me through all my mood swings and my change of personalities every year. though the changes in my style, the changes in my typing as well. i remember walking her to the bus stop every day at alvarado, and sitting there on the grass with her, talking about our lives and our boys. i remember our double dates to jack in the box and to the library. those were always fun. i remember going to the mall with her once, maybe twice. and her coming to my house for that math project. her coming to my house to make hearts out of expired candy for our boys. i don't know what happened to the one i gave him. all these good memories, seems like most are from our middle school days. just as everyone matures at different rates, grows up to become different people, i feel like that's what happened to us. it all started last year, when i became a busybee. i wasn't always there at lunch, always had some sort of club meeting. i spent less time on the phone with her, i had too much homework to do. i went out a lot with the seniors, she wasn't exactly too happy about that, she thought i did it way too much. but i never listened. i wanted things my own way, and she wished for me to do things her way. that's what happens when you deal with human beings. those selfish brats, like me. i don't know what's happening anymore. things have changed, a lot. she's gone her way, i've gone my way. what happened to BFFLTD ? i know it's not her, it's me. i keep making excuses, to not im her, to not call her on saturday nights when my computer isn't on, to not hang out with her when it's just her and him. there's so many things i haven't told her, so many things she doesn't know about me anymore. i want things to go back to the way they were before, but i know it's not going to happen. i want our friendship to be the same as it always was, but it's not just going to happen with a snap or in the blink of an eye. i know we need to work towards what we used to be, but i'm not sure if both of us want to, or if both of us are willing to. i'm tired of being so confused, and not knowing who i can always go to. i miss having her always there for me, i miss the phone calls and the talks when he wasn't around. i miss knowing exactly who to call when i need something, i miss know exactly who it is my best friend really is. i miss her, and i miss what we had back then. and i'm really sorry for being what i've been. and now she's mad at me.
i don't remember the last time i told her i love her
mkay so, there's something i think i need to say. i'm not gonna tell you about this. you can read it if you see it, whether you just wanna read my blog, or if he sees it first and tells you to read it. or you could just not see it, and not read it. or see it and not read it. whatever
not including the last couple of months, these past more than three years have been a blast. all throughout alvarado, and my first year at rowland, she's been there for me, every step of the way. it all began in sixth grade, us and our advanced math, gosh. the year flew by and i didn't talk to you becuhs well, i wasn't "allowed" to. summer came a long, and i was talking to thexfatxpig on aim with my first sn ever : cuteaznpride. we talked and we talked, and we got really close. she was pretty much my closest friend that summer, i told her everything, from enoch to wilber to willie to my summer, to, pretty much, life. and that's when it all started, 2006. i went to china that summer, and was there for about a month and a half. missed her a lot while i was gone, but when i came back, i'm pretty sure things were the same. unlike another situation that i'm not going to discuss right now. but anyways, as august 2006 slowly approached, i was excited for school. excited to see all my friends again, excited to finally be at the same school as this y0sunshineexx that's just so good at brightening up my day. i don't quite remember how many classes we had together, but i know forsure yearbook with delia and science with moreno were two. she taught me how to play minesweeper that year, and i got really good at it too. she laughed in that class, oh so much. she complained to me about moreno, how much he hated her and got her in trouble and pissed her off like no other. she was there for me february 2007 when i met him. she was there when i got with him, when he broke up with me in may, when we got back together, and when he broke up with me once again that june. she was there for me when i needed a shoulder to lean on. she brought me up every time i was down. she was there for me when i was hurt and confused. 8th grade came along, we only had one class together. she enduring all my obsessive talk with that one "cute" guy. i told her about the first time i ever talked to him, she was there through all the staring. i remember being on the phone with her that november, 2007. it was a saturday night, and i was asking her whether or not i should tell him how i feel. i told her everything that happened when i did tell him. how my heart was beating at 107842079318472 beats per second or whatever, how my hands were shaking ferociously, how i didn't know exactly what to say. how he asked me to winterformal, but told me he only liked me as a friend. i told her everything that happened four days later, when he told me that he liked me too. she was there for me through it all. she linked our arms for the first time. i told her about the first time we held hands. i told her about how i loved the way he held me. i told her about the closet, and the park. i told her when i had my first kiss. she was there for me when i had to leave for china for the second time. and she was there for me when i came back. she was there when he and i were happy, and she was there when things weren't going so well. she was there for me in august on 2008, when all i could do was cry, and in september, when it was all over. she was there for the next few months, when i was depressed. this is now my first year of high school. we had no classes together. but what does that matter, she was still my best friend. we hung out every day at lunch, usually with my twin. she was there for me when i had that "magical hug", even though she'd make fun of me all the time. she was there for me when that ended too. she was there when i started liking the senior. and she was there when i started liking another one. i remember on some saturday nights, my computer would be off, and i'd just sit on my bed and call her, just to talk. she'd have to go after a while, but that was okay, at least we got to catch up a little bit. i remember her fourteenth birthday at hometown buffet. i couldn't make it, and i sat at the basketball court at church, crying and on the phone. they kept telling me, stop crying lyd, stop crying. at least i saw her for two seconds at the mall. she was the first to call me lyd, and at first, the only. then everyone started calling me lyd. she was there for me through all my mood swings and my change of personalities every year. though the changes in my style, the changes in my typing as well. i remember walking her to the bus stop every day at alvarado, and sitting there on the grass with her, talking about our lives and our boys. i remember our double dates to jack in the box and to the library. those were always fun. i remember going to the mall with her once, maybe twice. and her coming to my house for that math project. her coming to my house to make hearts out of expired candy for our boys. i don't know what happened to the one i gave him. all these good memories, seems like most are from our middle school days. just as everyone matures at different rates, grows up to become different people, i feel like that's what happened to us. it all started last year, when i became a busybee. i wasn't always there at lunch, always had some sort of club meeting. i spent less time on the phone with her, i had too much homework to do. i went out a lot with the seniors, she wasn't exactly too happy about that, she thought i did it way too much. but i never listened. i wanted things my own way, and she wished for me to do things her way. that's what happens when you deal with human beings. those selfish brats, like me. i don't know what's happening anymore. things have changed, a lot. she's gone her way, i've gone my way. what happened to BFFLTD ? i know it's not her, it's me. i keep making excuses, to not im her, to not call her on saturday nights when my computer isn't on, to not hang out with her when it's just her and him. there's so many things i haven't told her, so many things she doesn't know about me anymore. i want things to go back to the way they were before, but i know it's not going to happen. i want our friendship to be the same as it always was, but it's not just going to happen with a snap or in the blink of an eye. i know we need to work towards what we used to be, but i'm not sure if both of us want to, or if both of us are willing to. i'm tired of being so confused, and not knowing who i can always go to. i miss having her always there for me, i miss the phone calls and the talks when he wasn't around. i miss knowing exactly who to call when i need something, i miss know exactly who it is my best friend really is. i miss her, and i miss what we had back then. and i'm really sorry for being what i've been. and now she's mad at me.
i don't remember the last time i told her i love her
Friday, September 11, 2009
thirty two
more weeks to go.
my third week of school was okay for me. maybe cuhs i was only there for like, two days, practically.
monday : no school. camp surf. not extremely fun, but pretty fun. TEAM E BABYYY >:] team E is the beest heheheh. i think we had the most fun. like seriously everyone else looked bored outta their minds. idk what else to say..
tuesday : got back to school at like 3ish. coulda went to weight training, didn't feel like it. waited around for someone willing to take me home. finally at 3, thanks allysa :) uhh idk what else.
wednesday : back to school, so much hw D: uhm. failed my calc test, cried. had a horrible day pretty much. but basketball practice went well. made like almost all my shots nd layups :) yay ! teehee
thursday : HORRIBLE morning. dropped my breakfast. found a spider in my shoe D: got a FAIL on my calc test. practice was okay. at school til 10:30 pm
friday : got to school at 6 am. welcome back set up & stuff. my first balloon column ! we failed at backdrop-moving. omg -_- well whatevers, some say it went well, some say it sucked. too bad. practice ! not too bad. first half hour went by like this *snaps* last fifteen minutes were like a whole lifetime. ran a long distance. HAHAH well it wasn't that bad. my time was 9:57. FAILED at pullups. got brownies after practice though ! thanks "coach carr" :) i'm sorry, i'm used to calling him mr. carr. but wow, he knows my name :o so uhm. chilled with mallorie and her family all afternoon. hahahah ! we watched two seconds of water polo, her mom came, asked if i had a ride, offered to give me one. ended up going to her house instead, stayed there til 5:30, dropped off allen and mr. ben at walnut, then off to my house we went. mallorie finally met robert >:] i'm not sure if he's shedding or mating -_- *shudders* so uhm. yeah. after that, grandparents'. then jennifer chung at yogurtland ! i'm so glad my mom finally let me go :) i actually talked to her. i think she knows my name :D teehee
tomorrow : i think i'll be chillin' with jasper & kevinlim for four hours. possibly joan. we'll see.
sunday : class officer bonding ! ;alskd;flakdsjf
lalala you make me sing
peace out
love, lyd <3
hope i can finish my homework. D:
and i'm scared of my gov test results ! DD:
my third week of school was okay for me. maybe cuhs i was only there for like, two days, practically.
monday : no school. camp surf. not extremely fun, but pretty fun. TEAM E BABYYY >:] team E is the beest heheheh. i think we had the most fun. like seriously everyone else looked bored outta their minds. idk what else to say..
tuesday : got back to school at like 3ish. coulda went to weight training, didn't feel like it. waited around for someone willing to take me home. finally at 3, thanks allysa :) uhh idk what else.
wednesday : back to school, so much hw D: uhm. failed my calc test, cried. had a horrible day pretty much. but basketball practice went well. made like almost all my shots nd layups :) yay ! teehee
thursday : HORRIBLE morning. dropped my breakfast. found a spider in my shoe D: got a FAIL on my calc test. practice was okay. at school til 10:30 pm
friday : got to school at 6 am. welcome back set up & stuff. my first balloon column ! we failed at backdrop-moving. omg -_- well whatevers, some say it went well, some say it sucked. too bad. practice ! not too bad. first half hour went by like this *snaps* last fifteen minutes were like a whole lifetime. ran a long distance. HAHAH well it wasn't that bad. my time was 9:57. FAILED at pullups. got brownies after practice though ! thanks "coach carr" :) i'm sorry, i'm used to calling him mr. carr. but wow, he knows my name :o so uhm. chilled with mallorie and her family all afternoon. hahahah ! we watched two seconds of water polo, her mom came, asked if i had a ride, offered to give me one. ended up going to her house instead, stayed there til 5:30, dropped off allen and mr. ben at walnut, then off to my house we went. mallorie finally met robert >:] i'm not sure if he's shedding or mating -_- *shudders* so uhm. yeah. after that, grandparents'. then jennifer chung at yogurtland ! i'm so glad my mom finally let me go :) i actually talked to her. i think she knows my name :D teehee
tomorrow : i think i'll be chillin' with jasper & kevinlim for four hours. possibly joan. we'll see.
sunday : class officer bonding ! ;alskd;flakdsjf
lalala you make me sing
peace out
love, lyd <3
hope i can finish my homework. D:
and i'm scared of my gov test results ! DD:
Sunday, September 6, 2009
OMG
just got back from ISA a while ago
i'm so freakin' excited omg !
i met some pretty cool people in line :)
got the TASTE of a good seat then had to move :[
spent time with vickie for the first time in a long time not at school ! :D
had gatorade for dinner.. LMAO
omg i got pictures with jennifer chung, tom ngo, gabe bondoc, & dominic ? from quest crew :D:D:DDDD
aaaaaand i got to shake hands with ALMOST D: everyone from ISA
AAAAAAAND i got to hug david choi, kina grannis, kevjumba, and WESLEY CHAN <3
MY OH MY WHAT A NIGHT
got to see aika again for the first time in three years :)
brian park was there, kenneth gip, alan & ben tsai, kevin lim, david wang, joan hsu, melody lai, jack lin, christina hwee, loradane, and other alumni that i never really met. hahahaha
today was amazing :) YAYAYYAYYY :D hehehehehe.
CAMP SURF TOMORROW ! :) still gots to pack & still gots a lotsa homeworks though :(
but 'tis ohkay. i had a great day today :)
WHEEEEE GABE BONDOC & WESLEY CHAN <3
peace out !
love, lyd <3
:)
i'm so freakin' excited omg !
i met some pretty cool people in line :)
got the TASTE of a good seat then had to move :[
spent time with vickie for the first time in a long time not at school ! :D
had gatorade for dinner.. LMAO
omg i got pictures with jennifer chung, tom ngo, gabe bondoc, & dominic ? from quest crew :D:D:DDDD
aaaaaand i got to shake hands with ALMOST D: everyone from ISA
AAAAAAAND i got to hug david choi, kina grannis, kevjumba, and WESLEY CHAN <3
MY OH MY WHAT A NIGHT
got to see aika again for the first time in three years :)
brian park was there, kenneth gip, alan & ben tsai, kevin lim, david wang, joan hsu, melody lai, jack lin, christina hwee, loradane, and other alumni that i never really met. hahahaha
today was amazing :) YAYAYYAYYY :D hehehehehe.
CAMP SURF TOMORROW ! :) still gots to pack & still gots a lotsa homeworks though :(
but 'tis ohkay. i had a great day today :)
WHEEEEE GABE BONDOC & WESLEY CHAN <3
peace out !
love, lyd <3
:)
Friday, September 4, 2009
YAYAYAYAYYYY
second week of school : over.
no that's not what i'm yaying about -_-
there's still freakin' like 34 weeks left.. D:
I'M DYING GUYS. somebody help me :[
i'm failing all my classes. this is horrible.
i think i have an F in calc. seriously.
and i think i failed my ap gov test today.
I HATE ASB RIGHT NOW.
i probably have like a D or something in english. stupid scarlet letter.
chem's alright, i'm tied for first place with a 98.3 % i guess i've always been pretty good at science ? i thought i'd always been good at math too though -_- eff that.
asb, it's hard for me not to get an A, isn't it ?
and i probably have an A in chinese.
A in basketball, of course. haha.
but i used to have a 4.0
and now i'm failing three classes. or at least i think i am..
life sucks, doesn't it ? D:
and i have to finish my homework by saturday night.
now for the yay's :D
i went to the pool today. hahahah. put my feet in the water :D haha wish i coulda gone all the way down. but i didn't have any clothes to change into, and i was waiting for my brother to come anywaays. fun talkin' to krys & annie :)
yayayaayy, i saw kevin lim yesterdee <3 i miss him :[ i hadn't seen him before yesterday since likee, that day i went to see wong fu. hahahaha yeah i know it wasn't that long ago, i guess i just miss seeing him every day during the school year. and at least once a week during the summer. didn't get to talk to him for long though hahaha. i felt so sneaky last night though :o even though i was right outside my house -_- LMAO
OMGOMGOMG sunday night. ISA BABBAAAAYY <3 wongfu, david choi, kina grannis, gabe bondoc !, quest crew, passion, and more ! i'm so freakin' excited. haven't chilled with vickie in a whileeeeeee :)
and CAMP SURF monday & tuesday ! i'm not sure if i wanna miss school on tuesday though. i'm scared. i need to go to calc to learn.
well i think that's it for the yay's cuhs my life sucks.
still haven't gone to cue & dinner with LJN2.
& still haven't hung with marielydab + jasfil for the birthdays. i feel like we're starting to drift..
seriously dab, i don't wanna kill our friendship over a stupid project. i know you're mad at me, i haven't talked to you in like four days. and i miss you. i'm just scared to start the first conversation. i'm really sorry
mariel always seems to be sad nowadays. she doesn't tell me anything anymore, so idk wsup. i don't talk to phillip much anymore. i only talk to jasper at 4th period, the passing period after 4th, and lunch. i miss you guys.
kevin suh hates me :'( it makes me sad
i feel like the whole world hates me, like my whole world is crashing down on me right now. i'm serious, this is too much for me to handle. i'm freakin' scared. what happened to all the friendships ? is it me ?
and on top of everything, i'm freakin' sore from basketball. all this plios / conditioning and weight training is killing my muscles. but i hope i'll be a lot better by season. & i'm really hoping i'll be on jv. fingers crossed.
i just don't know what to think anymore.
peace out
love, lyd <3
no that's not what i'm yaying about -_-
there's still freakin' like 34 weeks left.. D:
I'M DYING GUYS. somebody help me :[
i'm failing all my classes. this is horrible.
i think i have an F in calc. seriously.
and i think i failed my ap gov test today.
I HATE ASB RIGHT NOW.
i probably have like a D or something in english. stupid scarlet letter.
chem's alright, i'm tied for first place with a 98.3 % i guess i've always been pretty good at science ? i thought i'd always been good at math too though -_- eff that.
asb, it's hard for me not to get an A, isn't it ?
and i probably have an A in chinese.
A in basketball, of course. haha.
but i used to have a 4.0
and now i'm failing three classes. or at least i think i am..
life sucks, doesn't it ? D:
and i have to finish my homework by saturday night.
now for the yay's :D
i went to the pool today. hahahah. put my feet in the water :D haha wish i coulda gone all the way down. but i didn't have any clothes to change into, and i was waiting for my brother to come anywaays. fun talkin' to krys & annie :)
yayayaayy, i saw kevin lim yesterdee <3 i miss him :[ i hadn't seen him before yesterday since likee, that day i went to see wong fu. hahahaha yeah i know it wasn't that long ago, i guess i just miss seeing him every day during the school year. and at least once a week during the summer. didn't get to talk to him for long though hahaha. i felt so sneaky last night though :o even though i was right outside my house -_- LMAO
OMGOMGOMG sunday night. ISA BABBAAAAYY <3 wongfu, david choi, kina grannis, gabe bondoc !, quest crew, passion, and more ! i'm so freakin' excited. haven't chilled with vickie in a whileeeeeee :)
and CAMP SURF monday & tuesday ! i'm not sure if i wanna miss school on tuesday though. i'm scared. i need to go to calc to learn.
well i think that's it for the yay's cuhs my life sucks.
still haven't gone to cue & dinner with LJN2.
& still haven't hung with marielydab + jasfil for the birthdays. i feel like we're starting to drift..
seriously dab, i don't wanna kill our friendship over a stupid project. i know you're mad at me, i haven't talked to you in like four days. and i miss you. i'm just scared to start the first conversation. i'm really sorry
mariel always seems to be sad nowadays. she doesn't tell me anything anymore, so idk wsup. i don't talk to phillip much anymore. i only talk to jasper at 4th period, the passing period after 4th, and lunch. i miss you guys.
kevin suh hates me :'( it makes me sad
i feel like the whole world hates me, like my whole world is crashing down on me right now. i'm serious, this is too much for me to handle. i'm freakin' scared. what happened to all the friendships ? is it me ?
and on top of everything, i'm freakin' sore from basketball. all this plios / conditioning and weight training is killing my muscles. but i hope i'll be a lot better by season. & i'm really hoping i'll be on jv. fingers crossed.
i just don't know what to think anymore.
peace out
love, lyd <3
.
i talked about him today.
for the first time in a while, actually
it hit me like a bullet in the heart
two days
i don't understand or know why
but i've been counting down the days
since i realized it was september..
already.
it's been so long
since those times when he would
do those things to me
apparently he didn't listen to his best friend's advice
things have changed
he's changed
i don't know why it hurts so much
but it does
it's like a big burden on my heart
wanna tell someone but i can't
it's too late now to stop anything
and it's too late now to not feel the hurt
i wish it were over
for the first time in a while, actually
it hit me like a bullet in the heart
two days
i don't understand or know why
but i've been counting down the days
since i realized it was september..
already.
it's been so long
since those times when he would
do those things to me
apparently he didn't listen to his best friend's advice
things have changed
he's changed
i don't know why it hurts so much
but it does
it's like a big burden on my heart
wanna tell someone but i can't
it's too late now to stop anything
and it's too late now to not feel the hurt
i wish it were over
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
i have a list
of things i want to accomplish in my life.
short term goals or long term goals, whatever.
whether i finish these things 50 years later, or 10, maybe 5, doesn't really matter.
i just wanna get em done :)
number one : i want to write a book. i don't care if it gets published or not, i just wanna write a book :)
number two : make a present for wong fu so it might get possibly featured on a "video blog", or at least so they can have memories of me ! :D
number three : [hopefully within the first semester of this school year, or in 2009 if possible] draw out our spongebob characters so we can all put them on our binders or something ;) <--class officer shtuff.
number four : overcome my ADD. i honestly believe i have it. and i wish i didn't. maybe i need to take some medication, but i really don't want to. -_-
number five : achieve something in life ; make myself proud for once. go out, have fun, do what i wanna do, not what someone else wants me to do.
number six : learn to make my own decisions at one point. i often rely on others for their opinions on what i should do, and what i shouldn't do. "hey jess, should i do this or should i do that ? or both ?" even my mom notices i ask jess about everything. i need to stop
number seven : can i be more stressed out ? i wanna learn to relax, even at the most stressful moments. not be careless, but carefree. i could accomplish so much more if i didn't freak out so much.
number eight : honor my father and mother. and my brother. first commandment with a promise, and i don't exactly obey it. not good.
number nine : stop overthinking. i think way too much, about anything and everything. and that's exactly what stresses me out so much. calm down, lyd. just go with the flow.
number ten : last but definitely not least, strive [and really work] for a good relationship with God. i haven't been doing that in a while. i just think about it, no action at all. i know it's not easy, but it just makes it all the more worthwhile if i work hard to get to that point.
i really didn't think before i made this list. i just wanted to write a book, and to make something for wongfu :) but uhm. yeah. hopefully i can do all this, it's time to make a change.
peace out
love, lyd <3
short term goals or long term goals, whatever.
whether i finish these things 50 years later, or 10, maybe 5, doesn't really matter.
i just wanna get em done :)
number one : i want to write a book. i don't care if it gets published or not, i just wanna write a book :)
number two : make a present for wong fu so it might get possibly featured on a "video blog", or at least so they can have memories of me ! :D
number three : [hopefully within the first semester of this school year, or in 2009 if possible] draw out our spongebob characters so we can all put them on our binders or something ;) <--class officer shtuff.
number four : overcome my ADD. i honestly believe i have it. and i wish i didn't. maybe i need to take some medication, but i really don't want to. -_-
number five : achieve something in life ; make myself proud for once. go out, have fun, do what i wanna do, not what someone else wants me to do.
number six : learn to make my own decisions at one point. i often rely on others for their opinions on what i should do, and what i shouldn't do. "hey jess, should i do this or should i do that ? or both ?" even my mom notices i ask jess about everything. i need to stop
number seven : can i be more stressed out ? i wanna learn to relax, even at the most stressful moments. not be careless, but carefree. i could accomplish so much more if i didn't freak out so much.
number eight : honor my father and mother. and my brother. first commandment with a promise, and i don't exactly obey it. not good.
number nine : stop overthinking. i think way too much, about anything and everything. and that's exactly what stresses me out so much. calm down, lyd. just go with the flow.
number ten : last but definitely not least, strive [and really work] for a good relationship with God. i haven't been doing that in a while. i just think about it, no action at all. i know it's not easy, but it just makes it all the more worthwhile if i work hard to get to that point.
i really didn't think before i made this list. i just wanted to write a book, and to make something for wongfu :) but uhm. yeah. hopefully i can do all this, it's time to make a change.
peace out
love, lyd <3
Friday, August 28, 2009
sometimes i just like to write.
do i have what it takes to be what i wanna be
to do what i wanna do, and see what i wanna see
i'm tired of all this mess around me
tired of all the no's and maybe's
what will it take to keep me here
to keep me from losing it, from shedding a tear
how do i know that there's always more
to hold me back from walking out that door
all the lies have been told straight up to my face
i'm telling you now, my whole life's been a waste
give me a reason to keep me going
a motivation to keep my heart growing
i want to have the life i've dreamed of
and not be here where i'll never be heard of
to do what i wanna do, and see what i wanna see
i'm tired of all this mess around me
tired of all the no's and maybe's
what will it take to keep me here
to keep me from losing it, from shedding a tear
how do i know that there's always more
to hold me back from walking out that door
all the lies have been told straight up to my face
i'm telling you now, my whole life's been a waste
give me a reason to keep me going
a motivation to keep my heart growing
i want to have the life i've dreamed of
and not be here where i'll never be heard of
definitely
been a while.
i probably took out my contacts twice in the past seven days.
NOT GOOD. especially considering the fact that i have hard contacts, that makes it all the worse cuhs you're not even supposed to leave contacts in anyways, hard OR soft. so this is all becuhs i sleep at like, 4:30 in the morning ! ohkay, not every day, but that was once this week. THE FIRST WEEK OF FREAKING SCHOOL AND I ALREADY GET SUCH LITTLE SLEEP. UGH. i didn't even get enough sleep over the summer -_- stupid asb. lmao.
i have so much freaking homework, you don't even know. calc homework, i NEVER finish. rarely ever get to start. reading for gov ? i hate it. never get it done. started doodling on it last night. drew a really pretty flower though :) no regrets, fool. no regrets. JUST KIDDING i do regret it -_- cuhs i'm a nerd and i'm so scared of failing classes nd shtuff. failing for lyd = lower than an A- on my report card.
i got a 28 / 50 on my scarlet letter test. i was surprised ! not becuhs like, "nooo i failed", more like, wow, i did better / almost as good as some people who actually read the book carefully, read spark notes, took their own notes, and studied rigorously. i also got a 15/20 on my oral. that's like, major fail for me. like, c+ ?! 75 freaking %. but then i realize other people scores. the ones that read the book carefully, read spark notes, took their own notes, and studied rigorously. 99% of my oral, i didn't even know what the heck i was talking about. bs much ?! totally. and yet i still get an average score.
i haven't been on aim all week. or myspace. or youtube. rarely email. i miss summer. when homework wasn't due the next day, or ever. when there was no homework ! when i could go out all i wanted, omg.
have i blogged about wongfu ? i've been talking about them all week :) wesley is the freaking cutest guy in the whole world omg. so amazingly good looking ! i got a nice girl shirt, signed. i got a yogurtland cup signed too. i also got a keychain & a picture ! for memories :) i was the third person in line, but the first to "meet" wongfu. i was the first to touch tedfu's hand, then phillip wang, then wesley chan. my heart melted when i saw wesley. i was so freaking nervous omg. but it was the best. i stood next to wesley omg. i was so excited / happy HAHAHAH
i really wanna go to ISA. but i can't. cuhs i have WAY to much homework than i can handle and finish every day. ISA is labor day weekend, but so is camp surf. ISA september 6th, camp surf 7th and 8th, back to school on the 9th. not much time for me to do homework..not good. but i still really wanna go D: thanks to brian park :) for bringing the tickets for me. sorry my mom said no LMAO. i guess i'll go next time ! hopefully <3
OHYEAH i saw brian park on tv. it was the weirdest thing ever. didn't get to tell him today though hahahah maybe if i see him on monday :)
basketball ! omg i missed it so much. SOOOO outta shape, like you don't even know how fat i am -_- every day after sixth period i dread practice & don't feel good. but i'm glad i get through it :) no practice today ! hehe. i got a bruise on my finger from hitting mallorie -_- OH and i took a picture of robert the green spider LMAO omg i'm gonna show her monday.
i want food.
ARIEO AND I WILL SELF-DESTRUST IN FIFTEEN DAYS.
peace out.
love, lyd <3
p.s. there's a bunch of people i haven't talked to in forever ! :o mees yoooou
i probably took out my contacts twice in the past seven days.
NOT GOOD. especially considering the fact that i have hard contacts, that makes it all the worse cuhs you're not even supposed to leave contacts in anyways, hard OR soft. so this is all becuhs i sleep at like, 4:30 in the morning ! ohkay, not every day, but that was once this week. THE FIRST WEEK OF FREAKING SCHOOL AND I ALREADY GET SUCH LITTLE SLEEP. UGH. i didn't even get enough sleep over the summer -_- stupid asb. lmao.
i have so much freaking homework, you don't even know. calc homework, i NEVER finish. rarely ever get to start. reading for gov ? i hate it. never get it done. started doodling on it last night. drew a really pretty flower though :) no regrets, fool. no regrets. JUST KIDDING i do regret it -_- cuhs i'm a nerd and i'm so scared of failing classes nd shtuff. failing for lyd = lower than an A- on my report card.
i got a 28 / 50 on my scarlet letter test. i was surprised ! not becuhs like, "nooo i failed", more like, wow, i did better / almost as good as some people who actually read the book carefully, read spark notes, took their own notes, and studied rigorously. i also got a 15/20 on my oral. that's like, major fail for me. like, c+ ?! 75 freaking %. but then i realize other people scores. the ones that read the book carefully, read spark notes, took their own notes, and studied rigorously. 99% of my oral, i didn't even know what the heck i was talking about. bs much ?! totally. and yet i still get an average score.
i haven't been on aim all week. or myspace. or youtube. rarely email. i miss summer. when homework wasn't due the next day, or ever. when there was no homework ! when i could go out all i wanted, omg.
have i blogged about wongfu ? i've been talking about them all week :) wesley is the freaking cutest guy in the whole world omg. so amazingly good looking ! i got a nice girl shirt, signed. i got a yogurtland cup signed too. i also got a keychain & a picture ! for memories :) i was the third person in line, but the first to "meet" wongfu. i was the first to touch tedfu's hand, then phillip wang, then wesley chan. my heart melted when i saw wesley. i was so freaking nervous omg. but it was the best. i stood next to wesley omg. i was so excited / happy HAHAHAH
i really wanna go to ISA. but i can't. cuhs i have WAY to much homework than i can handle and finish every day. ISA is labor day weekend, but so is camp surf. ISA september 6th, camp surf 7th and 8th, back to school on the 9th. not much time for me to do homework..not good. but i still really wanna go D: thanks to brian park :) for bringing the tickets for me. sorry my mom said no LMAO. i guess i'll go next time ! hopefully <3
OHYEAH i saw brian park on tv. it was the weirdest thing ever. didn't get to tell him today though hahahah maybe if i see him on monday :)
basketball ! omg i missed it so much. SOOOO outta shape, like you don't even know how fat i am -_- every day after sixth period i dread practice & don't feel good. but i'm glad i get through it :) no practice today ! hehe. i got a bruise on my finger from hitting mallorie -_- OH and i took a picture of robert the green spider LMAO omg i'm gonna show her monday.
i want food.
ARIEO AND I WILL SELF-DESTRUST IN FIFTEEN DAYS.
peace out.
love, lyd <3
p.s. there's a bunch of people i haven't talked to in forever ! :o mees yoooou
Monday, August 24, 2009
i'm officially missing you
and i'm officially missing summer. i'm also officially hating school. ugh.
1 English 10 Honors -> Hiett
2 American Government AP -> Urbien
3 Calculus AB AP -> KOYFMAN
4 Chemistry -> Canfield
5 Leadership -> Phillips
6 Chinese 2 -> Kuo
7 Girls Basketball
I HATE THIS. i only read like, four chapters of scarlet letter, so obviously, i failed the test. orals starting wednesday, i'll just go ahead and fail that too cuhs reading is JUST NOT MY THANG. and hiett says we'll be doing a lot of reading this year. TWO FREAKING AP CLASSES. i don't understand koyfman's accent yet, but i heard him say "FAIL" AND it's calc, so i'm just so effing scared that i'm gonna fail. especially considering how my brother did in that class. AND that i had girard last year -_- ASB ASB ASB OMG. gonna take up SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH of my time. I SHALL NOT SLEEP THIS YEAR -_- chinese 2 = ESSAYS. UGH. basketball. that's just all the more time-wasting in my life. i hope practice isn't at 6 this year -_- asdfghjkl; ! i now have labor day booked for camp surf. winter break i'll be doing term papers for AP GOV. what was i thinking, taking a senior class my sophomore year ?! i hate that i'm in honors. i've never dreaded school so much. I MISS C/O 09 :[ come back guuuuuys ! it's so much better with you here.
well i guess i'm off to do homework..
PEACE OUT. :[
- lyd <3
1 English 10 Honors -> Hiett
2 American Government AP -> Urbien
3 Calculus AB AP -> KOYFMAN
4 Chemistry -> Canfield
5 Leadership -> Phillips
6 Chinese 2 -> Kuo
7 Girls Basketball
I HATE THIS. i only read like, four chapters of scarlet letter, so obviously, i failed the test. orals starting wednesday, i'll just go ahead and fail that too cuhs reading is JUST NOT MY THANG. and hiett says we'll be doing a lot of reading this year. TWO FREAKING AP CLASSES. i don't understand koyfman's accent yet, but i heard him say "FAIL" AND it's calc, so i'm just so effing scared that i'm gonna fail. especially considering how my brother did in that class. AND that i had girard last year -_- ASB ASB ASB OMG. gonna take up SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH of my time. I SHALL NOT SLEEP THIS YEAR -_- chinese 2 = ESSAYS. UGH. basketball. that's just all the more time-wasting in my life. i hope practice isn't at 6 this year -_- asdfghjkl; ! i now have labor day booked for camp surf. winter break i'll be doing term papers for AP GOV. what was i thinking, taking a senior class my sophomore year ?! i hate that i'm in honors. i've never dreaded school so much. I MISS C/O 09 :[ come back guuuuuys ! it's so much better with you here.
well i guess i'm off to do homework..
PEACE OUT. :[
- lyd <3
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
i'm an amateur
when i watch other people's videos, i realize just how much i suck. LMAO
i feel like i've been getting worseeeeeeee.
i wanna join choir but i'm in freaking asb, basketball, and honors :[
LALALLALALALAAA
new video up : halo, by beyonce.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3PmbVvCGHGw&feature=channel_page
youtube.com/lazielyd
then you go and watch this one by lydiajojo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VfXx4ad9ADg&feature=channel
that's when you realize. lyd sucks LMAO
peace out.
love, lyd <3
i feel like i've been getting worseeeeeeee.
i wanna join choir but i'm in freaking asb, basketball, and honors :[
LALALLALALALAAA
new video up : halo, by beyonce.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3PmbVvCGHGw&feature=channel_page
youtube.com/lazielyd
then you go and watch this one by lydiajojo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VfXx4ad9ADg&feature=channel
that's when you realize. lyd sucks LMAO
peace out.
love, lyd <3
hey stickems
so yesterday i couldn't blog cuhs my computer was being all weird when i typed. like my last two posts, those were both yesterday. ew i hate it when that happens. especially cuhs i don't know how to fix it. but whatevers HAHA
so i fixed up chrisyu's myspace yesterdee :)
aaaaand today i saw a bunch of my old teachers :) MRS. CHRISTENSEN omg i miss her so muuuuch. bagels & cream cheese.
soo, kevin lee, i just wanted to introduce you to my best friend, tom riddle.
^that's me hugging him . isn't he cute ? :) he's always there for me, that's why i love him hehe <3
PEACE OUT
love, lyd <3
so i fixed up chrisyu's myspace yesterdee :)
aaaaand today i saw a bunch of my old teachers :) MRS. CHRISTENSEN omg i miss her so muuuuch. bagels & cream cheese.
soo, kevin lee, i just wanted to introduce you to my best friend, tom riddle.
^that's me hugging him . isn't he cute ? :) he's always there for me, that's why i love him hehe <3
PEACE OUT
love, lyd <3
Monday, August 17, 2009
epopejt cncuosnislo otsu le nhw
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pe t. uocae
lv,yd <3l eo
pe t. uocae
lv,yd <3l eo
Sunday, August 16, 2009
goodday :)
soo, i don't regret my choice of asb beach bonding. and i'm glad i didn't even consider missing out from the vbs reunion. definitely wish i coulda stayed at the beach longer, but i got to see little aaron hung again <3 pictures ! facepaint. i'm tired.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
wow
never woulda thought MLIA would cheer me up so easily. i think it's my new best friend.
HAHA no i'm just kidding. but i do feel better now. i'm tired of thinking about my money. it always puts me in a bad mood. aye.
peace out.
- lyd <3
HAHA no i'm just kidding. but i do feel better now. i'm tired of thinking about my money. it always puts me in a bad mood. aye.
peace out.
- lyd <3
i feel like i wanna blog, but i don't wanna blog.
there's just so much going on tomorrow. asb beach bonding, ariel's party, vbs reunion, that mcdonald's thing. HAHAHA well i can only go to two of them, and i've chosen asb beach bonding and vbs reunion. i wonder how pooped i'll be tomorrow. i just feel like not going to anything anymore. i'm so stressed out from tryna figure whether to go to beach bonding or ariel's party. it took me forever to decide. and once i decided, i was undecided once more. but it's forshure now. i'm going to beach bonding. it better be fun or else i'm gonna kill myself. i guess i can say i'm in a really bad mood right now. btw, i've pretty much gotten over tree. teehee.
today was a pretty crazy day i guess. woke up early to get to school at 8. 10 minutes late but who cares. registration til like 11ish. waited for tim & jen for a freakin' hour nd a half or so. go to the mall at like 1 -_- but it was fun. watched time traveler's wife with jen. spent all my money, i'm gonna kill myself. i started out with like, over 900 yollars. and now i have three. THREE FREAKIN' DOLLARS. from 900. mmmmmhm i'm screwed. where'd it all go ? well why don't you look at my tummy & my thighs eh ? I'M FAT. i got FOOD. and then if you come over and take a look at my closet over here, yeah. i've accumulated quite a lot of clothes over this past year. I'M SO FREAKING SCREWED FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE FOOL. i wish i could just freakin' start over. i wanna run away. i'm so freaking moody. my period just ended. yeah i don't care if y'all know. what does it matter to me. everyone thinks i'm crazy anyways. everyone in the freakin' line at raging waters hates me cuhs i was singing so much. WELL YA KNOW WHAT ? TOO BAD. I DON'T EFFING CARE -_- ugh.
and i have to make a powerpoint for tomorrow cuhs the ones cindy sent were screwed up. ugh. fml. yeah randall, i don't care -_- so freakin' not in the mood.
well then i went to the beach with the alhambrians. quite fun actually, andrew lok is so weird ;) finally got a hug from victor. walked along the shore at night with diane haha. don't feel like blogging anymore.
happy birthday unofficial <9
peace out
- lyd <3
there's just so much going on tomorrow. asb beach bonding, ariel's party, vbs reunion, that mcdonald's thing. HAHAHA well i can only go to two of them, and i've chosen asb beach bonding and vbs reunion. i wonder how pooped i'll be tomorrow. i just feel like not going to anything anymore. i'm so stressed out from tryna figure whether to go to beach bonding or ariel's party. it took me forever to decide. and once i decided, i was undecided once more. but it's forshure now. i'm going to beach bonding. it better be fun or else i'm gonna kill myself. i guess i can say i'm in a really bad mood right now. btw, i've pretty much gotten over tree. teehee.
today was a pretty crazy day i guess. woke up early to get to school at 8. 10 minutes late but who cares. registration til like 11ish. waited for tim & jen for a freakin' hour nd a half or so. go to the mall at like 1 -_- but it was fun. watched time traveler's wife with jen. spent all my money, i'm gonna kill myself. i started out with like, over 900 yollars. and now i have three. THREE FREAKIN' DOLLARS. from 900. mmmmmhm i'm screwed. where'd it all go ? well why don't you look at my tummy & my thighs eh ? I'M FAT. i got FOOD. and then if you come over and take a look at my closet over here, yeah. i've accumulated quite a lot of clothes over this past year. I'M SO FREAKING SCREWED FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE FOOL. i wish i could just freakin' start over. i wanna run away. i'm so freaking moody. my period just ended. yeah i don't care if y'all know. what does it matter to me. everyone thinks i'm crazy anyways. everyone in the freakin' line at raging waters hates me cuhs i was singing so much. WELL YA KNOW WHAT ? TOO BAD. I DON'T EFFING CARE -_- ugh.
and i have to make a powerpoint for tomorrow cuhs the ones cindy sent were screwed up. ugh. fml. yeah randall, i don't care -_- so freakin' not in the mood.
well then i went to the beach with the alhambrians. quite fun actually, andrew lok is so weird ;) finally got a hug from victor. walked along the shore at night with diane haha. don't feel like blogging anymore.
happy birthday unofficial <9
peace out
- lyd <3
Monday, August 10, 2009
POST 101
deeeeng i've had my blog since february 17th, 2009. so it's been about..six months ! almost. hehehe in exactly one week, i will have had my blog for half a year. CUHRAAZY. and i have 100 posts ! before this one. HOW EXCITING :D
so last night i slept at like 1:30, and i had to wake up at like 6:30 this morning. i really needa sleep earlier. two weeks left of summer, then school starts again. NOOOO I HATE MY LIFE D: this is actually the first year in my life that i do not want school to start yet. or at least as far back as i remember. i need more time ! omg. and then this year is all gonna be super hard nd stuff. i meean, come on, i'm gonna be a suffermore ! D: well, in like 730 days maybe i'll be much more relieved. hopefully. cuhs i can't wait til senior yeeeear.
today was prep for registration and i was wearing jeans and it was so freaking hot. we were freaking sorting cups in the sun. WTH ? cleaning the shed..ugh. hahahha well at least we got to go to mcdonalds & stuff. and at least we were in the hideout for a whileeee. mrs. burch's daughter is so freaking funny. idk, i just find it funny how she's so cuhreepy and everyone's so scared of her. but i'm not ! :) i walked her to mrs. burch's classroom today after everyone else left. cuhs i knew it'd take a while for my dad to get to school. turns out she goes to jellick. SO DID I :D hahaha woow.
anywho, recorded some birthday videos nd stuff. fuhreaking tired. considering taking a nap. i needa read scarlet letter D: cuhs i seriously HAVE NOT STARTED -_- i'm so screwed. not good not good. i hate reading. ugh. and i'm so freaking moody cuhs yaknow yaknow, girl stuff. MENSTRUATION. yes, i don't care if you know. HEHE
PEACE OUT
love, lyd <3
so last night i slept at like 1:30, and i had to wake up at like 6:30 this morning. i really needa sleep earlier. two weeks left of summer, then school starts again. NOOOO I HATE MY LIFE D: this is actually the first year in my life that i do not want school to start yet. or at least as far back as i remember. i need more time ! omg. and then this year is all gonna be super hard nd stuff. i meean, come on, i'm gonna be a suffermore ! D: well, in like 730 days maybe i'll be much more relieved. hopefully. cuhs i can't wait til senior yeeeear.
today was prep for registration and i was wearing jeans and it was so freaking hot. we were freaking sorting cups in the sun. WTH ? cleaning the shed..ugh. hahahha well at least we got to go to mcdonalds & stuff. and at least we were in the hideout for a whileeee. mrs. burch's daughter is so freaking funny. idk, i just find it funny how she's so cuhreepy and everyone's so scared of her. but i'm not ! :) i walked her to mrs. burch's classroom today after everyone else left. cuhs i knew it'd take a while for my dad to get to school. turns out she goes to jellick. SO DID I :D hahaha woow.
anywho, recorded some birthday videos nd stuff. fuhreaking tired. considering taking a nap. i needa read scarlet letter D: cuhs i seriously HAVE NOT STARTED -_- i'm so screwed. not good not good. i hate reading. ugh. and i'm so freaking moody cuhs yaknow yaknow, girl stuff. MENSTRUATION. yes, i don't care if you know. HEHE
PEACE OUT
love, lyd <3
Sunday, August 9, 2009
byebye debs.
today :
church, "meeting", shopping with rena & reba funfunfun :), played with abby ! <3
pathfinder paaaark ! in a dress. LMAO yes, i played basketball in a dress & no shoes. i miss basketbaaaaaall. i seriously ate too much today. soooo full omg. wayne drove us for like 1 minute :) FUNFUN hehehee. and he helped me out with basketball too. but i suck too much :( i can't do any of that cool stuff like he can. favorite boy cousin !
took pictures. byebye debbielei. good luck at berkeley <3
PEACE OUT.
love, lyd <3
church, "meeting", shopping with rena & reba funfunfun :), played with abby ! <3
pathfinder paaaark ! in a dress. LMAO yes, i played basketball in a dress & no shoes. i miss basketbaaaaaall. i seriously ate too much today. soooo full omg. wayne drove us for like 1 minute :) FUNFUN hehehee. and he helped me out with basketball too. but i suck too much :( i can't do any of that cool stuff like he can. favorite boy cousin !
took pictures. byebye debbielei. good luck at berkeley <3
PEACE OUT.
love, lyd <3
Saturday, August 8, 2009
today was a horrible day.
so i slept at 3 am this morning, and woke up at 8:55 or so. got ready and went to that seafood place next to 99 ranch market on nogales for some dim sum with these church people cuhs one family is moving to washington dc. seriously, everyone there was over 30 or younger than 12. here i am, all 15 nd stuff. my brother was sleeping over at his friends house -_-
i had plans for tomorrow to go to cue with LJN2 to FINALLY celebrate truong's birthday. but today i find out that tomorrow is my cousin's farewell party. she's going to freakin' berkeley & i won't get to see her besides like thanksgiving and christmas. and all of us cousin's on my dad's side are super close, like this *crosses fingers*. so i'm out at this restaurant in public, and of course, being the little baby i am, i cry. -_- i go outside, and nicole truong, i freaking love you & i'm so freaking sorry. i called her nd she was willing to do the hangout after school starts. i felt so bad, her birthday was in may.
then they're done eating and we go outside in the sun and they talk some more, so i play with the little kids. and i freaking get in trouble. like, wth i'm not even doing anything wrong. well i mean yaknow yaknow, heat makes me cranky. so i stand out there waiting, all freaking bored nd stuff. in the sun omg ugh. then the kids start playing with me again, so like, eff what my parents said. LMAO then we went to the bank where i saw my uncle and i called "san shu shu" or δΈεε but he didn't hear me -_- AHAHA but it's okay we saw him later.
my dad took me home after, i called annie at like 12 and told her she could come over. she said she was gonna eat lunch nd come. so it's freaking 2 and she's not here yet and i'm freaking pissed cuhs we have to leave for church at like, 4. she's not picking up her phone calls either. we were gonna go running and come back, take a shower, talk about boys, and THEN leave. but she comes at freaking 2:30 so all we get to do is talk about boys. LMAO i almost fell asleep waiting for her to come.
so we get to church, and guess what. i freaking forgot my shoes. i mean, it's parents' appreciation night, otherwise known as PAN, so we're dressing nice nd stuff. i brought my dress. but i forgot everything else. i'm wearing freaking flip flops and my hair is messed up. i don't have a necklace or anything, and i have a freaking speedzone thing on my wrist from two weeks ago. then i couldn't find my phone. i was having the worst day in the world. on top of that, it was freaking hot, so of course i'm cranky. i didn't know what to do at all, nd i was just pissed. like OH EM GEE UGH. AAAAND my boobs look freaking bigger with my dress on, like wth ?! and no, i do not think it's a good thing. well everything turned out fine. my mom got shoes for me cuhs she just loves me so freaking much, thanks <3 OH AND for the longest time, we couldn't find this poster we made last week. nd i was freaking in charge of it so of course i'm worried and flipping out nd stuff yaknow ? finally i found it, omg. and everything was wonderful.
had an iffy morning and a horrible afternoon, but tonight was wonderful :) i had a lot of fun with gladiator, and it's just making me all the more confused. i thought i was over him. but i guess i'm not. freaking on & off for five years, i don't understand it ! and then there's the other one -_- WHAT DO I DO D:
peace outt
love, lyd <3
i had plans for tomorrow to go to cue with LJN2 to FINALLY celebrate truong's birthday. but today i find out that tomorrow is my cousin's farewell party. she's going to freakin' berkeley & i won't get to see her besides like thanksgiving and christmas. and all of us cousin's on my dad's side are super close, like this *crosses fingers*. so i'm out at this restaurant in public, and of course, being the little baby i am, i cry. -_- i go outside, and nicole truong, i freaking love you & i'm so freaking sorry. i called her nd she was willing to do the hangout after school starts. i felt so bad, her birthday was in may.
then they're done eating and we go outside in the sun and they talk some more, so i play with the little kids. and i freaking get in trouble. like, wth i'm not even doing anything wrong. well i mean yaknow yaknow, heat makes me cranky. so i stand out there waiting, all freaking bored nd stuff. in the sun omg ugh. then the kids start playing with me again, so like, eff what my parents said. LMAO then we went to the bank where i saw my uncle and i called "san shu shu" or δΈεε but he didn't hear me -_- AHAHA but it's okay we saw him later.
my dad took me home after, i called annie at like 12 and told her she could come over. she said she was gonna eat lunch nd come. so it's freaking 2 and she's not here yet and i'm freaking pissed cuhs we have to leave for church at like, 4. she's not picking up her phone calls either. we were gonna go running and come back, take a shower, talk about boys, and THEN leave. but she comes at freaking 2:30 so all we get to do is talk about boys. LMAO i almost fell asleep waiting for her to come.
so we get to church, and guess what. i freaking forgot my shoes. i mean, it's parents' appreciation night, otherwise known as PAN, so we're dressing nice nd stuff. i brought my dress. but i forgot everything else. i'm wearing freaking flip flops and my hair is messed up. i don't have a necklace or anything, and i have a freaking speedzone thing on my wrist from two weeks ago. then i couldn't find my phone. i was having the worst day in the world. on top of that, it was freaking hot, so of course i'm cranky. i didn't know what to do at all, nd i was just pissed. like OH EM GEE UGH. AAAAND my boobs look freaking bigger with my dress on, like wth ?! and no, i do not think it's a good thing. well everything turned out fine. my mom got shoes for me cuhs she just loves me so freaking much, thanks <3 OH AND for the longest time, we couldn't find this poster we made last week. nd i was freaking in charge of it so of course i'm worried and flipping out nd stuff yaknow ? finally i found it, omg. and everything was wonderful.
had an iffy morning and a horrible afternoon, but tonight was wonderful :) i had a lot of fun with gladiator, and it's just making me all the more confused. i thought i was over him. but i guess i'm not. freaking on & off for five years, i don't understand it ! and then there's the other one -_- WHAT DO I DO D:
peace outt
love, lyd <3
My Life Is Average.
is the awesomest site in the world
thanks to chrisyu who introduced me to it :)
i was so deprived for not knowing of it ! omg. HAHAHAH
i was telling mallorie about it one day, and she was like, oh MLIA ! and i'm like oh you know about it too. ahahhaha
anyways, i submitted a story, but it was not published :[
so i shall publish it on my blog ! lmao idk :D
haha something like that. i know, not interesting :[ but it was the funniest thing when it happened ! :)
so today my mei came over. we blasted music and had a great time in my backyard. i usually don't go there. HAHAHAHAHAH :) did you know..there's a couch on my driveway. it's so cool, we just chill there :D she's coming again tomorrow ! yaaaay. then PAN timeeee ! i'm sooo..anxious ! i hope i don't forget anything.
i'm in such a good mood and don't really know why..HAHAHAHHA hm. i just wanna go do something ! and it's like, 1 am :)
ahhhh so restleeeess.
"i think that possibly maybe i'm falling for you"
maybe that's why.
i wish i could drive, and i lived by myself. i would so just go out right now. i'd drive over to a friend's house, call her, nd say, "hey i'm outside your house right now. i'm so bored, let's go do something." yeah, 1 am :) aaahhhh !
i don't wanna end this post. i don't know why. i just don't wanna go to sleep !
i changed my wallpaper for my phone today. hahahahah i've been spending so much time with my mei lately !
lalallalalaaaaa wsupwsup :)
PEACE OUT
- LYD <3
:):):):):)
he's immune to sad faces.
okayz0rds.
hopefully he doesn't read this.
thanks to chrisyu who introduced me to it :)
i was so deprived for not knowing of it ! omg. HAHAHAH
i was telling mallorie about it one day, and she was like, oh MLIA ! and i'm like oh you know about it too. ahahhaha
anyways, i submitted a story, but it was not published :[
so i shall publish it on my blog ! lmao idk :D
"Today, I had my first picnic. I was so excited. We were eating pasta and ice cream in my backyard. MLIA."
haha something like that. i know, not interesting :[ but it was the funniest thing when it happened ! :)
so today my mei came over. we blasted music and had a great time in my backyard. i usually don't go there. HAHAHAHAHAH :) did you know..there's a couch on my driveway. it's so cool, we just chill there :D she's coming again tomorrow ! yaaaay. then PAN timeeee ! i'm sooo..anxious ! i hope i don't forget anything.
i'm in such a good mood and don't really know why..HAHAHAHHA hm. i just wanna go do something ! and it's like, 1 am :)
ahhhh so restleeeess.
"i think that possibly maybe i'm falling for you"
maybe that's why.
i wish i could drive, and i lived by myself. i would so just go out right now. i'd drive over to a friend's house, call her, nd say, "hey i'm outside your house right now. i'm so bored, let's go do something." yeah, 1 am :) aaahhhh !
i don't wanna end this post. i don't know why. i just don't wanna go to sleep !
i changed my wallpaper for my phone today. hahahahah i've been spending so much time with my mei lately !
lalallalalaaaaa wsupwsup :)
PEACE OUT
- LYD <3
:):):):):)
he's immune to sad faces.
okayz0rds.
hopefully he doesn't read this.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
i can't believe i actually did it.
i'm sorry ariel, i just can't help myself :/
this morning i woke up at like 6:30 to take a shower. got to school at like 8, talked to danny & some other cc people. chilled with dab for a while, adam came, jen came, blahblah. varsity tennis practice ! with dabbie. HAHAHA mm kevin & jack & darren & this other guy..ted ? came. oh and david too ! omg long time no seeeeee i missed them so muuuch <3 especially david and jack haha. i see kevin all the time ! i'm not too close to darren, and..i don't know ted. lmaoo. anywho, i was dribbling a basketball on the tennis courts today. I FREAKING MISS BASKETBALL :[ <3
around 11 my brother took me to the mall. i got there at like 11:20 or so becuhs he freaking forgot we were going to the mall. he turned on accident and went the long way...aye. haha and i thought i was late. but i waited like a bajillion minutes for chris -_- HAHAH well when i got there, SURPRISE sitting there was adam [who i just saw at the tennis courts earlier that day o.o], wesley, timtruong, anderson, and two girls LMAO. so i sat with them while i waited for the lazy bum from walnut. yeah seriously, the movie started at 11:30 & he freaking woke up at 11 -_- WOWOWOW. sooo i gave him six bucks to buy my ticket cuhs i wanted to go get some food cuhs, as annie & angela may recall, i can get hungry in the theaters -_- so mcdonalds took foreeeever ! chris was getting impatient. haha he's so funny sometimes. so mean though ! >:o anywhoo, the original plan was for ugly truth at 11:30, the collector at 1:30, and harry potter at 3:15. however they did not have tickets for ugly truth or something like that..idk. so chris got tickets for the proposal..again -_- cuhs yeah, we totally watched that together last thursday -_- but whatevers, he's a loser :) so instead, we watched the collector at 11:15, missed the beginning ; watched funny people at 1:20, waited for half an hour cuhs the collector ended at like 12:55 ; aaaand watched hp6 at 3:15 as planned, but missed the first half hour or so becuhs funny people ended at like 4 -_- WHATEVERS. none of these movies were particularly good.. -_- ayee idk. too bad :) six dollars for three movies, eh i wouldn't call it a ripoff. so chris & i were being mean to each other the whole time. idk whyyy hahaha. he went to buy earrings after -_- yeah i keep telling him he's gay :) he got a snack wrap after, then we went to the customer information center to turn in our mcdonalds receipts for more points for rowland :) luckily he didn't know what i was doing LMAO since he goes to walnut..hahaha. suckeeeeer ;) hm so after, his friend came. then we went to look for a cardigan for him. ae, then forever 21. then he had to leave. then i left. LMAO today was fun. thanks chrisyu :) and effyou. HAHA JUST KIDDING <3
this morning i woke up at like 6:30 to take a shower. got to school at like 8, talked to danny & some other cc people. chilled with dab for a while, adam came, jen came, blahblah. varsity tennis practice ! with dabbie. HAHAHA mm kevin & jack & darren & this other guy..ted ? came. oh and david too ! omg long time no seeeeee i missed them so muuuch <3 especially david and jack haha. i see kevin all the time ! i'm not too close to darren, and..i don't know ted. lmaoo. anywho, i was dribbling a basketball on the tennis courts today. I FREAKING MISS BASKETBALL :[ <3
around 11 my brother took me to the mall. i got there at like 11:20 or so becuhs he freaking forgot we were going to the mall. he turned on accident and went the long way...aye. haha and i thought i was late. but i waited like a bajillion minutes for chris -_- HAHAH well when i got there, SURPRISE sitting there was adam [who i just saw at the tennis courts earlier that day o.o], wesley, timtruong, anderson, and two girls LMAO. so i sat with them while i waited for the lazy bum from walnut. yeah seriously, the movie started at 11:30 & he freaking woke up at 11 -_- WOWOWOW. sooo i gave him six bucks to buy my ticket cuhs i wanted to go get some food cuhs, as annie & angela may recall, i can get hungry in the theaters -_- so mcdonalds took foreeeever ! chris was getting impatient. haha he's so funny sometimes. so mean though ! >:o anywhoo, the original plan was for ugly truth at 11:30, the collector at 1:30, and harry potter at 3:15. however they did not have tickets for ugly truth or something like that..idk. so chris got tickets for the proposal..again -_- cuhs yeah, we totally watched that together last thursday -_- but whatevers, he's a loser :) so instead, we watched the collector at 11:15, missed the beginning ; watched funny people at 1:20, waited for half an hour cuhs the collector ended at like 12:55 ; aaaand watched hp6 at 3:15 as planned, but missed the first half hour or so becuhs funny people ended at like 4 -_- WHATEVERS. none of these movies were particularly good.. -_- ayee idk. too bad :) six dollars for three movies, eh i wouldn't call it a ripoff. so chris & i were being mean to each other the whole time. idk whyyy hahaha. he went to buy earrings after -_- yeah i keep telling him he's gay :) he got a snack wrap after, then we went to the customer information center to turn in our mcdonalds receipts for more points for rowland :) luckily he didn't know what i was doing LMAO since he goes to walnut..hahaha. suckeeeeer ;) hm so after, his friend came. then we went to look for a cardigan for him. ae, then forever 21. then he had to leave. then i left. LMAO today was fun. thanks chrisyu :) and effyou. HAHA JUST KIDDING <3
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
yeeeee
today is august 4th. but too bad. pretend it's august 3rd.
so yesterday (august 2nd) i had a stomachache from drinking a lot of coffee. i'm not a coffee person. i don't normally drink coffee at all. i was practicing my between the leg crossovers though, with my stomachache. i don't think that was a good thing. i took a shower after. and then i cleaned the bathtub cuhs it was dirty -_- i eventually got a headache. didn't even wanna eat dinner. so i went upstairs, it was about 8:20. thought i was gonna go to sleep, but read scarlet letter instead. it was like 10:30. i had read like ten pages..of the intro -_- FAILURE. so yeah, then i was gonna go to sleep at 11 but i couldn't, soo, idk. i fell asleep at like 12ish.
today i woke up, ate lunch, took stuff outta boxes and now i still have to clean it up. i told dabbie a story :) theen my mei picked me up. we went to the village where we ate at this italian place next to cold stones. yes i guess you can say i ate again -_- I'M A FATTY. i called arnold to tell him i was in walnut cuhs he was the only one that i have the number of but his phone was like off. idk i still texted him cuhs i'm a loser haha. so then we went to staples so annie could buy some school supplies or something idk. then we went to cold stones and annie thought she lost her phone. went back to the italian place, wasn't there. headed towards staples. i noticed her phone was in her pocket -_- headed to tj maxx so her mom could return something, decided to stay in cuhs it was hot/humid outside and there was ac inside. look at / tried on shoes & hats & scarves. i ended up buying a hat, she bought a pair of shoes. i wanted these yellow heels but i need to conserve money ! omg. hahahah they were cute though. well i thought :) soo we headed back to her house nd it was like already five. we had left my house at like 1 or something. mm i helped her memorize some words for theory for like three hours HHAHAH okay maybe two. but it was hilarious hahahah we talked like crazy asians -_- uhh then we played gh4 but it kinda got weird or something. either it wasn't working right or we just suck that much LMAO. probably the latter. so anyways dinner time ! pretty awkward since i don't really talk to her dad or her brother. but i guess it was okay :) mm her mom thinks i like fish. which is odd..idk where she got that from LMAO. anywho. after dinner we walked to stater bros. it was close to the hub cafe so i decided to go there to see if maybe kevinlim was there :) AND HE WAS i was so excited ahahhahaha. so i opened the door, and i saw..KEVIN LIU OMG WHAT THE ahahhahaha. so i thought maybe jen's here ! and she was ! i was so excited LMAO i have seen her in a while omg ! so yeeah, i was with annie at the time. i introduced her to kevinlim, vice versa or whatever. she headed back to stater bros where her brother was waiting, and i stayed to talk to kevin a little bit. i was so excited he told me to calm down LMAO so after a while a headed back to staterbros where annie and her brother were both reading magazines or something. so we were there for a while, debating on who's cuter : taylor lautner or robert pattinson LMAO. i am totally for taylor <3 hehehe. so we headed back to her house. played some hsm sing it on her wii LMAO theeen we went up to her room to record some videos :) WE FAILED THOUGH so don't expect nice videos..hehehehehe. idk when i'm getting them though. is it gonna be like the vids i recorded at jen's house months ago ? long gone. HAHAHAHAH idk :) well, 10pm came along and there's this drama they watch. cheesy but cute :) guang ying de gu shi ? hhaha well whatevers. my mom called and i had to go home. it was like 11:30, almost hahaha wow. well now it's 1:30. OH YEAH i also saw some pictures. the suzanne yearbook from 2007-2008. just thought i'd mention. HAHAHAH yeah. SO killed my image -_- but anyways i'm tireeeeeed.
so peace outtt
love y'all !
- lyd <3
so yesterday (august 2nd) i had a stomachache from drinking a lot of coffee. i'm not a coffee person. i don't normally drink coffee at all. i was practicing my between the leg crossovers though, with my stomachache. i don't think that was a good thing. i took a shower after. and then i cleaned the bathtub cuhs it was dirty -_- i eventually got a headache. didn't even wanna eat dinner. so i went upstairs, it was about 8:20. thought i was gonna go to sleep, but read scarlet letter instead. it was like 10:30. i had read like ten pages..of the intro -_- FAILURE. so yeah, then i was gonna go to sleep at 11 but i couldn't, soo, idk. i fell asleep at like 12ish.
today i woke up, ate lunch, took stuff outta boxes and now i still have to clean it up. i told dabbie a story :) theen my mei picked me up. we went to the village where we ate at this italian place next to cold stones. yes i guess you can say i ate again -_- I'M A FATTY. i called arnold to tell him i was in walnut cuhs he was the only one that i have the number of but his phone was like off. idk i still texted him cuhs i'm a loser haha. so then we went to staples so annie could buy some school supplies or something idk. then we went to cold stones and annie thought she lost her phone. went back to the italian place, wasn't there. headed towards staples. i noticed her phone was in her pocket -_- headed to tj maxx so her mom could return something, decided to stay in cuhs it was hot/humid outside and there was ac inside. look at / tried on shoes & hats & scarves. i ended up buying a hat, she bought a pair of shoes. i wanted these yellow heels but i need to conserve money ! omg. hahahah they were cute though. well i thought :) soo we headed back to her house nd it was like already five. we had left my house at like 1 or something. mm i helped her memorize some words for theory for like three hours HHAHAH okay maybe two. but it was hilarious hahahah we talked like crazy asians -_- uhh then we played gh4 but it kinda got weird or something. either it wasn't working right or we just suck that much LMAO. probably the latter. so anyways dinner time ! pretty awkward since i don't really talk to her dad or her brother. but i guess it was okay :) mm her mom thinks i like fish. which is odd..idk where she got that from LMAO. anywho. after dinner we walked to stater bros. it was close to the hub cafe so i decided to go there to see if maybe kevinlim was there :) AND HE WAS i was so excited ahahhahaha. so i opened the door, and i saw..KEVIN LIU OMG WHAT THE ahahhahaha. so i thought maybe jen's here ! and she was ! i was so excited LMAO i have seen her in a while omg ! so yeeah, i was with annie at the time. i introduced her to kevinlim, vice versa or whatever. she headed back to stater bros where her brother was waiting, and i stayed to talk to kevin a little bit. i was so excited he told me to calm down LMAO so after a while a headed back to staterbros where annie and her brother were both reading magazines or something. so we were there for a while, debating on who's cuter : taylor lautner or robert pattinson LMAO. i am totally for taylor <3 hehehe. so we headed back to her house. played some hsm sing it on her wii LMAO theeen we went up to her room to record some videos :) WE FAILED THOUGH so don't expect nice videos..hehehehehe. idk when i'm getting them though. is it gonna be like the vids i recorded at jen's house months ago ? long gone. HAHAHAHAH idk :) well, 10pm came along and there's this drama they watch. cheesy but cute :) guang ying de gu shi ? hhaha well whatevers. my mom called and i had to go home. it was like 11:30, almost hahaha wow. well now it's 1:30. OH YEAH i also saw some pictures. the suzanne yearbook from 2007-2008. just thought i'd mention. HAHAHAH yeah. SO killed my image -_- but anyways i'm tireeeeeed.
so peace outtt
love y'all !
- lyd <3
Saturday, August 1, 2009
hm
so kevin suh doesn't really want me to stop blogging ? idk.
soo..wow i haven't posted about my days in quite a while. hm, summer school ended on the 17th of july. then the week after that i still had basketball. the 24th, basketball bonding. super fun pool bonding :) jv & varsity, no coaches HAHA. i was in the pool from like, 1pm to 7pm. cuhrazy huh. well i got out to eat hehe. ate supermuch got superfull :[ then we some of us headed to the park. made some jerking videos HAHA :D then irene and i went swingin' while the others did idk what. we started getting headaches so we went over with them. took some fail pictures. headed back, mallorie's parents were there. but mallorie still stayed cuhs her parents were talking to marcela's parents LMAO. for like, an hour. it was hilarious. we shot some hoops or whatever. tried to dunk. I FAILED EPICALLY -_- then there were six of us left. we were sitting outside talking. my mom came. 10 minute train on the way home. got home, then i forgot what happened hahaha.
i don't remember what happened that weekend..but uh, monday i stayed at home doing nothing. tuesday, woke up at like 7:30 or something, got ready and headed to the district office. made some posters, ate some donuts, stuff like that. got back at 11ish ? waited. hehe. at 5 i went to speedzone, and got lost on the way -_- WTH hahahahaha. so i did not know that melissa kamiyama works at speedzone ! hahaha mm i was with mallorie and victoriaa. we rode the slick track once. I FAILED. then we went to the turbo track. victoria dropped her card at the slick track so she didn't go with us -_- we rode the single rider or whatever. then we went inside for some shooting game and ddr. HAHAHAH ddr. anywho. we wanted to eat so we walked/ran to chilis for dinner ;) my mom called me there D: i was so scared. cuhs i don't think i was supposed to leave speedzone. neither was mallorie. we were both superscared. but victoria was laughing at us LMAO. so we got our food to-go, and we ran back to speedzone. yeah i think mallorie's mom called her TWICE while we were not at speedzone. but we got back, ate, and mallorie and i were both superfull. went outside to the tracks. rode the double rider OR WHATEVER IT'S CALLED on the turbo track cuhs that line was shorter. then we rode it again. wait i don't think that's right...too bad ahhaha. yeah i think we did the double rider before chilis. hahaha whatevers. anyways, then the rode the single rider again. we went inside for ddr again. and our cards ran out LMAO. but that day was superfun :)
wednesday. at like, 11ish ? i forgot when. kevinlim came by and picked me up. jasper, kevin, me, and chriscelle aka JKL+C went to ihop for some brunch :) this day was to celebrate jasper's 15th birthday hehe. i got him some socks ! after ihop we went to school to drop off chriscelle for band practice. JKL went to the pool place by the 99.99 cent store to play some pool jas & lyd vs. kevin. HAHAHAHHA we woulda lost but we won cuhs kevin kept hitting in the 8 ball LMAO YES >:] i'm a failure. LMAO jasper and i were fighting for shotgun in kevin's car..AT THE FREAKING WRONG CAR LMAO. kevin won't let that go. hahahaahhaah we was like, what are you guys doing ? and he was walking to this other car HAHHAHA LMAO. yeeeah...jasper got shotgun :[ we headed to mcdonald's cuhs we were thirsty. then we went to rowland park and just parked there in the shade. i was taking pictures, jasper was..idk, playing with stuff. hahahah and i'm not sure what kevin was doing. i think he was just choosing songs the whole time. cuhs we were listening to songs from his phone. band practice was over, we headed over to joan's house. we stayed there longer than we all thought we would. chriscelle plays catch my by demi lovato beautifully :) i could listen to it all day if she were willing to play. we went to oak tree lanes to bowl ! I FAILED EPICALLY -_- so bad, so bad. first time i bowled in a whileeee ! it was fun even though i sucked LMAO. jasper and i played the skeeball thing there. i thought i was pretty good LMAO HAHAHAHAH. we got 43 tickets -_- the guy was like, i'll give you 45. hahaha we got this hot dog thing and two dice. that was supposed to be like 50 tickets but i guess the guy was just really nice ? hahaha idk. sooooooo yeah. we went to brea mall for some california pizza kitchen. I LOVE IT THERE :) good food, nice people. wonderful. after dinner, we went to bath & body works. then we headed home. oh yeah i had to borrow one of the socks i got for jasper cuhs i didn't have socks for bowling D: cuhs i fail -_-
thursday ! mallin' with panda & co. FINALLY hehe. arnold wu, kelvin mak ?, chris yu, me, nicole kanow, and jessica lee. the proposal. after, we met up with jess's sister tiffany and her friend ivan. mongolian grill ! theen forever 21. then the girls & ivan left, i was left with the three boys. kinda awkward at first, then it got pretty fun. headed to sears so i could return some expensive socks. kelvin kept talking about sex -_- they made me say okayzors. then we went to tilt. kelvin and arnold were playing a shooting game. i forgot what it was called. something crisis ? hahaha idk. chris & i went to play the basketball games in the corner. I FAILED. wow, i fail at something every day. anywho, i got 17, he got 26 LMAO but i got three tickets. and he didn't get any. i thought it was kinda funny hehe. then we went to watch kelvin & arnold. chris & i were gonna go play skeeball, then arnold's brother came. they had to leave, and i was left all alone, waiting for my brother for freaking 25 minutes. -_- there was this lady sitting in front of me, staring at me listen to my ipod and play tetris demos on my phone. it was pretty creepy D: then i went home. that night, i was talking on aim to arnold and chris, about okayzors LMAO. turns out i own all other girls cuhs i'm the only one who says it. i also found out that it's not okayzors :O it's okayz0rds. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH. so yeah. okayz0rds, i'm gonna stop talking about thursday. :D
friday, i went to my cousin's house at like 4ish to swim. all of us cousins were there except katrina cuhs she and debbie are freaking fighting. i personally feel that it's really stupid -_- UGH she shoulda went. some of wayne's friends went o.o and my mei annie went haha. well we played marco polo & chicken fight. then my grandma came and took us out to eat. life plaza ! we had dinner, then some shaved ice :D annie & i went to other grandparents' house cuhs my mom was there. we were trying to jerk LMAO shutup :) I FAIL. HEHEHEHE. we were cracking up it was hilarious. then my mom took us to my house, where she listened to me sing nd stuff. she says my originals should be on the radio, but i don't think so hahahah. she probably has low standards or something. WHATEVER :) mm we camerawhored until my brother's camera ran outta battery LMAO. then she left, and i was left bored.
this morning i woke up, took a shower, and ate lunch. and here i am. annie was supposed to come over in the morning but i don't know where she is.
SORRY MALLORIE, I'VE BEEN SLEEPING LATE D: i mees youuuuuu <3
sorry for this extremely long post. again. HAHAH i haven't done it in a while, and i've had a funfilled week :)
PEACE OUT
- lyd <3
soo..wow i haven't posted about my days in quite a while. hm, summer school ended on the 17th of july. then the week after that i still had basketball. the 24th, basketball bonding. super fun pool bonding :) jv & varsity, no coaches HAHA. i was in the pool from like, 1pm to 7pm. cuhrazy huh. well i got out to eat hehe. ate supermuch got superfull :[ then we some of us headed to the park. made some jerking videos HAHA :D then irene and i went swingin' while the others did idk what. we started getting headaches so we went over with them. took some fail pictures. headed back, mallorie's parents were there. but mallorie still stayed cuhs her parents were talking to marcela's parents LMAO. for like, an hour. it was hilarious. we shot some hoops or whatever. tried to dunk. I FAILED EPICALLY -_- then there were six of us left. we were sitting outside talking. my mom came. 10 minute train on the way home. got home, then i forgot what happened hahaha.
i don't remember what happened that weekend..but uh, monday i stayed at home doing nothing. tuesday, woke up at like 7:30 or something, got ready and headed to the district office. made some posters, ate some donuts, stuff like that. got back at 11ish ? waited. hehe. at 5 i went to speedzone, and got lost on the way -_- WTH hahahahaha. so i did not know that melissa kamiyama works at speedzone ! hahaha mm i was with mallorie and victoriaa. we rode the slick track once. I FAILED. then we went to the turbo track. victoria dropped her card at the slick track so she didn't go with us -_- we rode the single rider or whatever. then we went inside for some shooting game and ddr. HAHAHAH ddr. anywho. we wanted to eat so we walked/ran to chilis for dinner ;) my mom called me there D: i was so scared. cuhs i don't think i was supposed to leave speedzone. neither was mallorie. we were both superscared. but victoria was laughing at us LMAO. so we got our food to-go, and we ran back to speedzone. yeah i think mallorie's mom called her TWICE while we were not at speedzone. but we got back, ate, and mallorie and i were both superfull. went outside to the tracks. rode the double rider OR WHATEVER IT'S CALLED on the turbo track cuhs that line was shorter. then we rode it again. wait i don't think that's right...too bad ahhaha. yeah i think we did the double rider before chilis. hahaha whatevers. anyways, then the rode the single rider again. we went inside for ddr again. and our cards ran out LMAO. but that day was superfun :)
wednesday. at like, 11ish ? i forgot when. kevinlim came by and picked me up. jasper, kevin, me, and chriscelle aka JKL+C went to ihop for some brunch :) this day was to celebrate jasper's 15th birthday hehe. i got him some socks ! after ihop we went to school to drop off chriscelle for band practice. JKL went to the pool place by the 99.99 cent store to play some pool jas & lyd vs. kevin. HAHAHAHHA we woulda lost but we won cuhs kevin kept hitting in the 8 ball LMAO YES >:] i'm a failure. LMAO jasper and i were fighting for shotgun in kevin's car..AT THE FREAKING WRONG CAR LMAO. kevin won't let that go. hahahaahhaah we was like, what are you guys doing ? and he was walking to this other car HAHHAHA LMAO. yeeeah...jasper got shotgun :[ we headed to mcdonald's cuhs we were thirsty. then we went to rowland park and just parked there in the shade. i was taking pictures, jasper was..idk, playing with stuff. hahahah and i'm not sure what kevin was doing. i think he was just choosing songs the whole time. cuhs we were listening to songs from his phone. band practice was over, we headed over to joan's house. we stayed there longer than we all thought we would. chriscelle plays catch my by demi lovato beautifully :) i could listen to it all day if she were willing to play. we went to oak tree lanes to bowl ! I FAILED EPICALLY -_- so bad, so bad. first time i bowled in a whileeee ! it was fun even though i sucked LMAO. jasper and i played the skeeball thing there. i thought i was pretty good LMAO HAHAHAHAH. we got 43 tickets -_- the guy was like, i'll give you 45. hahaha we got this hot dog thing and two dice. that was supposed to be like 50 tickets but i guess the guy was just really nice ? hahaha idk. sooooooo yeah. we went to brea mall for some california pizza kitchen. I LOVE IT THERE :) good food, nice people. wonderful. after dinner, we went to bath & body works. then we headed home. oh yeah i had to borrow one of the socks i got for jasper cuhs i didn't have socks for bowling D: cuhs i fail -_-
thursday ! mallin' with panda & co. FINALLY hehe. arnold wu, kelvin mak ?, chris yu, me, nicole kanow, and jessica lee. the proposal. after, we met up with jess's sister tiffany and her friend ivan. mongolian grill ! theen forever 21. then the girls & ivan left, i was left with the three boys. kinda awkward at first, then it got pretty fun. headed to sears so i could return some expensive socks. kelvin kept talking about sex -_- they made me say okayzors. then we went to tilt. kelvin and arnold were playing a shooting game. i forgot what it was called. something crisis ? hahaha idk. chris & i went to play the basketball games in the corner. I FAILED. wow, i fail at something every day. anywho, i got 17, he got 26 LMAO but i got three tickets. and he didn't get any. i thought it was kinda funny hehe. then we went to watch kelvin & arnold. chris & i were gonna go play skeeball, then arnold's brother came. they had to leave, and i was left all alone, waiting for my brother for freaking 25 minutes. -_- there was this lady sitting in front of me, staring at me listen to my ipod and play tetris demos on my phone. it was pretty creepy D: then i went home. that night, i was talking on aim to arnold and chris, about okayzors LMAO. turns out i own all other girls cuhs i'm the only one who says it. i also found out that it's not okayzors :O it's okayz0rds. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH. so yeah. okayz0rds, i'm gonna stop talking about thursday. :D
friday, i went to my cousin's house at like 4ish to swim. all of us cousins were there except katrina cuhs she and debbie are freaking fighting. i personally feel that it's really stupid -_- UGH she shoulda went. some of wayne's friends went o.o and my mei annie went haha. well we played marco polo & chicken fight. then my grandma came and took us out to eat. life plaza ! we had dinner, then some shaved ice :D annie & i went to other grandparents' house cuhs my mom was there. we were trying to jerk LMAO shutup :) I FAIL. HEHEHEHE. we were cracking up it was hilarious. then my mom took us to my house, where she listened to me sing nd stuff. she says my originals should be on the radio, but i don't think so hahahah. she probably has low standards or something. WHATEVER :) mm we camerawhored until my brother's camera ran outta battery LMAO. then she left, and i was left bored.
this morning i woke up, took a shower, and ate lunch. and here i am. annie was supposed to come over in the morning but i don't know where she is.
SORRY MALLORIE, I'VE BEEN SLEEPING LATE D: i mees youuuuuu <3
sorry for this extremely long post. again. HAHAH i haven't done it in a while, and i've had a funfilled week :)
PEACE OUT
- lyd <3
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
UGH FML
i hate how asb & church activities clash so much. i wish all asb stuff could be like, monday through thursday. how much better my life would be..no more freaking having to leave asb bondings early just because i hate skipping church. OMG i hate my life.
anyways, i don't feel like blogging about my life anymore. i mean, stuff's happening, quite a lot of stuff. i just don't see the point anymore -_- and it wastes so much of my time..i have better things to do ! maybe i should just stop blogging..i mean. everyone else has pretty much stopped -_-
anyways, i don't feel like blogging about my life anymore. i mean, stuff's happening, quite a lot of stuff. i just don't see the point anymore -_- and it wastes so much of my time..i have better things to do ! maybe i should just stop blogging..i mean. everyone else has pretty much stopped -_-
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